princess diaries

cepatlah bulan 12

2010-07-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

they say absence makes heart grows fonder.i say that too.

i spent my 1 month winter break in Australia, unlike last year. i've been touring brisbane, Gold Coast, Newcastle and Sydney with my bestie.it was sort of our first vacation together, auww it sounds kinda wrong.haha.she's a girl ya! of course we were having real fun but unfortunately i felt homesick. watching a girl sat on her mother's lap reminded me of my mum.then i would tell my bestie ' i miss my mum:(' she replied: stop it waheeda or else i would feel homesick too. so we turned to become each other's mum.lol. especially on the nagging part:p thanks to our cool mums for trusting us on tis one! her trust that i treasure the most. i'm grateful for that :). my mum is always letting me and my sis going on our own way. most of my major decisions made on my own. she is always there, hold my back. mak mak:) and now the 'Thank you Allah' by Maher Zain is on track, makes me teary.haha.but i'll be okay cos she'll be here in December. it's just 5 more months..o yeah!

comeback.

2010-04-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

Ama Zilna

Approaching God with our hearts
No fear nor grief for whom He guides
His rope is strong and will never waver
His provision is there for all who are in need

In every place, at every time
Above you is The Glorious Caretaking Lord
In every place, at every time
You have a Lord who loves you and will never forget you

Do we know our Lord?
Do we see our Lord's blessings?
Do we know our Lord?
Do we thank Him... or have we forgotten..
that His servants... we are
[ www.thenasheedlyrics.com ]

In His Dominion we exist for as long as He wills
And we call upon His bounty through prayer
And seek His favors through hope
For He is our refuge when difficulty strengthens its hold

In every place, at every time
Above you is a Gloriouscare Taking Lord
In every place, at every time
You have a Lord who loves and will never forget you

Do we know our Lord? Do we see our Lord's blessings?
Do we know our Lord? Do we thank Him... or have we forgotten..
that His servants... we are

My heart is Allah's, My soul is Allah's
My wealth is Allah's

p/s: sometimes i just way too much for not remembering that we have Him.

anonymous please

2010-03-07T01:22:00.000-08:00

i'm not sure how u define stalker.....

there's a change in tis year's system; we able to sign up our own tute class. to my surprise, the list of people who have signed up is visible to other students. it means that you can enroll in any class, in your own preferences. i decided to sign up in the 2nd class.i have free time during the slot, that's the rule of thumb. simple. it turned out that my so called 'crush' happens to be in the same class.FYI, he's a caucasian and obviously he doesn't even know me. i notice him from the last year's class. 2 classes to be exact. and thanx to the tutor, i manage to know his name (with annoying giggles). but for the time being, he is not the distraction of tute class. again thanx to the tutor 4 being such a great tutor. and at least i have learnt how to put aside your feeling or whatsoever and focuses on professionalism,cheh. i made it sound serious crush or something.btw, it's nothing after all. it's just a girl's thing.heh.

p/s: wednesday is my lucky day.nah.everyday is lucky day:)

be yourself la

2010-03-04T00:39:00.000-08:00

being grown- up is not that difficult. not that easy too.

i just started my 3rd uni year tis week. this 1st week been pretty hectic as lots of house keeping stuffs need to be done.hehe. and i would say early of uni term is costly.need to spend on books, upgrading phone etc. there's a need to monitor the spending more regularly! despite that, all went great for the 1st week,alhamdulillah. to be honest, the academic stuffs do make me worry.luckily the lecturers and tutors are so dedicated n helpful too. i need to confess, i don't even know what's the purpose of my post.hope you find one, hopefully the useful one.back to the story, there are several things that fascinate me. we always heard how being positive can change someone's life for the better. i couldn't agree more. as i recalled, being in tute class is something that can depress me.no jokes. i ended up doing nothing, not even participating the tute.it hurts me as i disappointing myself no one else.and seriously i don't wanna be in that kinda situation again. the tute just commenced for tis sem n i pray that Allah gives me strength to trust my own self. i pray that He strengthen my faith. i got teary eyes now! how could i doubt myself when He always hear me.our path might be different, i just wanna wish the best for it. when you're feeling down, u gotta think that you are never alone. one more thing, stay positive in ridiculous situation is not a wrong act.

HADITH 1 (from Imam Nawawi's 40 Hadeeth)
It is narrated on the authority of Amirul Mu'minin, Abu Hafs 'Umar bin al-Khattab, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say: "Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated." [Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

well said :)

FYI, mata untuk melihat

2010-02-17T08:24:00.000-08:00

i got an evil thinking of abandoning tis blog a little bit longer.haha.an evil laugh and wicked smile.

my nenek always said that us (her modern granddaughters.lazy supposedly.lol) can't beat her perfection in doing house chores. i must agree 110%. she doesn't care to spend hours in kitchen,just like me spending hours in front of laptop. i always believe that she is born to be a great housewife. ampu nenek kah? haha.no i'm not. but what happened today proves she's our legend.plus a lesson to be learnt. here how the story goes.

my aunt's family was visiting us today. my adik has always be the one who preparing the drinks etc for the guest.fine, she's good at it. the fact that the glasses are not matched to the jug pissed my grandma off. adding to her annoyance was serving the kuah kacang with big bold senduk instead of appropriate size of spoon.haha. i thought those were small problems,back of my head. but again it's actually how perfectly you're doing something. and yourself should know first if we're just giving a shot or we really doing things at our best.

p/s: even though she never say it literally, i know she hopes that i will be the best me in everything.that includes improvised cooking.haha.

currently listening to

2010-02-13T07:38:00.000-08:00

tis is what i do when i don't know what to write about.

p/s: the lyric is simply awesome:)

2010-02-11T07:35:00.000-08:00

i got the 4th n 6th in the list!

running in heels

2010-02-08T15:49:00.001-08:00

sometimes they say pictures worth for explanation rather than words.so let the pics do the talking!

plain white blouse looks girlie. honestly,i always avoiding wearing tops in white.
cool graphic tank. love is in the air? most of the graphics have to do with'love' etc.
a simple black jacket to be matched with short sleeved shirts.

a simple, casual long shirt. it's just perfect 4 any call; class wear, outing wear etc.

grey straight cut jeans also in my wish list. grey seems to go along with any color.

i need cardigan which can be matched with short sleeved tops. and mustard yellow color cardigan would be awesome!

how i wish there's forever 21 store in Melbourne:( the tops mostly are long length tops.

p/s: girls are always girls.

chapter 4: you need to know where you are

2010-01-31T21:30:00.000-08:00

i'm not really keen on sleeping over at my friends' place.

i was attending my best friend's sis nuptial recently and sleeping over at her place for 2 nights.that's the first time ever i was sleeping over at my friend's house, house full with her family members.that's including her extended family. i kinda expect tis as it was one day before the reception. i am fortunate that most of her cousins are girls under 18! if the house filled with gentlemen, it will be troublesome. so i end up laugh my heart out most of the time.lol. thus, i need to constantly reminding myself that i'm at someone else's house:p spending the nights away from house, give me things to ponder upon.

firstly, u'll be missing the 'home' feeling when you are away. you might gaze the same moon, but it's different feeling. am i trying to be lovey dovey here? hik. secondly, don't expect you would fit in the new environment right away.naturally, you need time to achieve that.like what my grandma told me; the longer time taken,the tastier your cook would be. the longer time blends the ingredients more perfectly, the longer time ensures your raw food well cooked. thirdly, do know and play your role. if you are a host, be an inviting host.if you are a guest, be a behaved guest. all in all, being away from home makes me realize that you'll not always be in your comfort zone. u will be forced to face awkward encounters sometimes. i would say there are always awkward situations throughout our life.how awkward it would be having our first public speaking? how awkward it would be getting stuck with completely stranger for hours. the awkwardness never stop i guess.

p/s: being involved in wedding preparation makes me a little bit awkward. but something that i'm looking forward to. i was jokingly volunteered to be my sis's wedding planner. she rejected the idea, which is not a joke.haha

antara dua

2010-01-26T03:37:00.000-08:00

which one u rather choose

the 1 that you interested

the 1 that is easy ?

btw, i'm referring 'the 1' as my course subjects! it's hard to decide. hope i will make the right choice as it will have imminent implications. every decisions to be made will have implications right. i need to think harder on tis:p having opportunity to choose is privileged. i can choose my 8 subjects despite quite thorough process involved:p out of 8 subjects, 2 subjects must be unrelated to my course.i've done management, arabic, marketing and social science. marketing tops my favorite chart. the logical part of marketing that intrigue me the most, i must say. we will see if marketing would be my choice for the next 2 sems.

u know the answer

2010-01-25T00:14:00.000-08:00

first post typed by new laptop:)

frustration always struck me after i walked out from examination hall. i let myself down by not giving 100% for the exam.then endlessly blame i put on myself, how should harder i'll be trying. how should systematic should i be.bla and bla... and to meditate tis: i shopped randomly or dine out with friends. there's one time i chatted bout tis with my friend.

'you know what, it's sometimes about how much u want tis in your life'

and her words stay vividly in my mind.

figuring out what you want in life itself is a challenge. i don't wanna make it sounds pessimistic. but it's a serious deal. and i really admire those who stands firmly to chase their dreams. i do have problems in being serious planning bout life. it's not that i pulled a long face 24/7. it's bout deciding which path would you embarked in future. i had so much 'go with the flow' all this time i guess. and again i should ask the inside me: how much i want tis?

p/s: i'll be away for few days.hopefully there are captivating stories out there. i wanna write bout someone else next time around!

30 hari mencari cinta

2010-01-21T23:31:00.000-08:00

pejam celik pejam celik, i'll be leaving in 1 month time.sigh.fine, grin:)

i'll be missing a lot of things;

sleeping for ages, arguing with my sis, been tagged along by Danish which i always complain about:p, competing with mak for using laptop, watching korean dramas with family (hindi movies too.nenek so into them.genetic factors have sort of role.heh.).and the list goes on and on. wait, eating like there's no tomorrow, tis is what my sis told me.i'm just embrace the fact that how easily you can get halal food here:) consequently, i gain weight, thank you.

nenek: nanti balik sana, kakak kuruslah.

it's not that easy nenek.cause your granddaughter is really enjoying foods. despite one month left, i still hope that i could meet particular wonderful people before heading back to Melbourne. please..please..please God.

p/s: chemistry works the successful relationship. but the blood relationship has them all works; chemistry, biology and logic physics:) and obviously, you have to work the relationship too.

not spare yourself

2010-01-14T10:24:00.000-08:00

i love it when it just pop out....

i've been spending the night study bout the laptop thingy. hehe. i must admit that i ain't the tech savvy. and i don't even care bout it. honestly, i'm not really interested in gadgets and high tech stuffs. but after my laptop damaged, i think i need to know all these stuffs. at least the basic ones.
even though it was last-ditch effort, i come up with one simple observation: u will try hard so that you're not dumbfound others. i recalled the fact how hard was i trying for something. it was actually my lab test.we were given a week for test practice. and i went it for like 6-7 times. cause i'm aware that i might screw up the experiment again. heh. alhamdulillah, i get improved throughout the practice sessions. practice makes perfect, that's what they say. however, it turned out the other way during the actual test.what can i say? and there was standing my lab demonstrator:

her: i think you try too hard.sometimes there are things that u shouldn't try that hard.

i couldn't agree more.

but sometimes trying hard is irresistable. it is not to please others or even for their satisfaction.but it's satisfy own self. sort of guilty pleasure.i even watching youtube for the sake of using pipette correctly...haha. i can't help it.that's particular one of my guilty pleasures. what is yours?

hanyalah Satu

2010-01-13T08:20:00.000-08:00

and it takes me 5 days to decide what i gonna write about,

Sabda Rasullulah:
Aku memberi amaran kepadamu mengenai dia (Ad-dajal) dan tiada Nabi memberi amaran kepada kaumnya tentang ad-dajal, tetapi aku memberitahu sesuatu yang tiada Nabi sebelumku memberitahu kepada kaumnya, ketahuilah ad-dajal itu bermata satu dan Allah tidak bermata satu.
(Sahih Bukhari)

this really caught my attention.i don't even aware of the 'single-eyed' symbol.i presume the symbol must have its own meaning.well, every symbol stands for something.surprisingly, it also appeared during AJL 24 last sunday. i even double checked the You Tube video. tis is getting more interesting.Thank God for this finding.it's sort of the thing that can thrill you. cause it smells fishy.

single eyed symbol in Freemasonry being called ALL-SEEING EYE; represents symbol of watchfulness, and the eye of God as the symbol of Divine watchfulness and care of the universe.istighfar.
and as a friendly reminder:

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim.....

1. Say: He is Allah, the One and Only;

2. Allah, the Eternal, Absolute;

3. He begetteth not, nor is He begotten;

4. And there is none like unto Him.

(surah al-Ikhlas)

hidden agenda? conspiracy? wallahhhualam. Allah knows best.i just gotta the thinking that it's something worth to know about.and bear in mind, there is none like Him.

p/s: tempatkan kami kalangan yang beriman, Ya Rabb Al Amin.

nothing like home

2010-01-08T21:29:00.000-08:00

home is the place where you belong, the safest one.

the violence reported in the news lately taken me aback. serious talk. the brutal ranging from strangers killing random people to killing of own family members. the world is not getting absurd, but it's the people. seriously those cases scare me.i don't need to elaborate more on the cases, we've been watching them in news and reading them on newspapers. recent case that i've been heard is the murderer killed a man who was trusted his wife's affair. killing people seems as solution, and not an option now. someone's life seems invaluable. the inhumane, violent, foolish acts really make me contemplating on going out.specifically if i need to travel alone. friends out there, especially girls: do take care of yourself when you're going out. even when you staying home. fine, same goes with the boys too. even you're black belt taekwondo or anak guru silat ke, or been rehearsing the ultraman moves for ages: still, be careful. save the last for best; i'm highly recommend the daily mathurat reading. u can get the printed one (ayaat with the translation) at nearby bookstore. i saw them available at MPH!

p/s: it's a reality check. unlike Jan Di who has F4 to rescue her.precisely, Ji Hoo sunbae *melting*. it's a drama after all.

chapter 3: you are woman, not little girl

2010-01-03T20:04:00.000-08:00

5th week of my summer love

2009 has come to an end. the weeks moved so slow before.but now the years revolve unexpectedly faster. i am grateful for making through 2009. if there's one thing to wrap up my 2009, it will be i learned a lot bout people. that includes learning bout myself too.serious talk, the dictionary couldn't list all adjectives describing people. people are special. the wonderful creation of people is written in Noble Quran;

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,

dan (ingatlah) ketika Kami berfirman kepada malaikat: "Tunduklah (beri hormat) kepada Nabi Adam". lalu mereka sekaliannya tunduk memberi hormat melainkan Iblis; ia enggan dan takbur, dan menjadilah ia dari golongan yang kafir.

(2:34)

but sometimes people act peculiarly. and you can be quite surprised of what people capable do. but i am so grateful that God grants me patience and rationale. despite they are may people that hurt you, they are good ones. in fact, the loved ones. i hope that i will never be the one who hurt them. well, i am people too.

p/s: my current fav song: breathe by anna nalick

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

it's 2010

2010-01-02T16:08:00.000-08:00

somehow i think i may need 2010 resolutions.

btw, new year greeted me with broken laptop. i hate to admit this, i need to buy a new one:( i've been thinking of buying macbook. we will see. i need to find the most resistant laptop!haha. speaking of 2010, a lot of things will be on my plate:

1) turning 22.how flattered is that?

2) my final degree year. pray for coming graduation day.it's December.ameen.

those two are predictable. i have no idea bout the unexpected ones though. whether it's expected or the other one, i hope i nailed them. most importantly, i wish for better attitudes.

p/s: better writing should be included in resolution list too, i think.

aku bukanlah superman

2009-12-27T09:27:00.000-08:00

aku bukanlah superman, aku juga bisa nangis

i was at level 3 of TSC (Tampin shopping centre yo!). i was waiting for my sis paying for double a batteries. the stationery set catched my glimpse. the kids must be over the moon while getting the brand new school items.i've been there :p i browsing the school related stuffs, killing time. the 'upin ipin' drawing block caught my attention. upin and ipin are cute, i admit. but there was weird urge of sketching struck me. i'm holding the drawing block and had a monologue:

' i should try sketching'

i'm not good at all in art. better trust me. there sometimes in life, we wanna try to do something different. they might be typical, whilst alien to ourselves. human have desire, that's my theory. make a wish to Allah, even though it seems unreachable. it might you, not for Him.

5 cents worth sincerity

2009-12-24T00:27:00.000-08:00

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it's your 1st Birhday, Darl.

2009-12-15T22:29:00.000-08:00

i'm not gonna write you a love song cause you asked for it
cause you need one, you see.

it has been like almost 1 year i've been blogging.frankly speaking, it all started with the blog reading. i enjoy reading others' thoughts and reflection. for me, it is the reflection of wisdom.and to be honest i'm not that good in writing.hehe. but this one thing i am consistently have passion in it.indeed there sometimes i slipped away.not updating my baby blog for about 2 weeks! at the very beginning, i was finding what my signature writing would be. what should i write about. furthermore, how exposed can i be? to what extent i can unveil my thougts. cos blogging is form of self expression. when you express yourself, there's tendency of your privacy being violated.(bajet semua orang baca blog lak!haha). i'm also concern bout who might be my lucky readers* grin*. i'm so anxious if my close ones read my blog.haha. there's adrenaline rush. i prefer being secret writer.then who i address my blog to? so that's why my roomie attempt to put my blog link in YM. but slowly i learn to be open bout it.everyone is more than welcomed to read my humble princess diaries. i really hope you gain something from it.the good ones of course!everyone has their own melody, come on write your song babeh!

p/s: honesty can reach heart.hope i could reach yours:)

chapter 2: embark on motherhood

2009-12-15T06:50:00.000-08:00

3rd week of my summer love

we went to the Zoo Melaka.three of us.me, adik and little Danish.obviously the zoo treat is none other for him! don't worry i'm not gonna to blabbing bout zoo experience. but i am so touched by the fact that there are parents taking an off-day to spend quality time at zoo:0 making their kids leap happily. danish didn't have a complain at all. he was like really into the visit. when are we going to see elephant? when are we going to see tiger? haha.making the aunts sweats off fat.lol. did'nt i just mentioned that i'm not gonna blabbing on zoo experience? pardon me.we headed to Melaka Mall afterwards. for the sake of converting ringgit into rupiah.Aku akan jadi jutawan pantas!haha.
while waiting for the person in-charge of money changer, i bumped into my ex-classmate.we haven't seen each other for about 9 years.phew. she was like in disbelief when seeing me.
i put on weight. that could be the most reliable theory.

'ni anak kau ke? she was referring to Danish.
i gave her finger. not the middle one.next to it. meaning still no ring stuck on my finger.

before we bid goodbye, she murmured: kawen jemput aku.

of course! i will.not only you.but all of our ex-classmates:p insyaAllah.

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,

It is not permitted to the Sun to catch up the Moon, nor can the Night outstrip the Day: Each (just) swims along in (its own) orbit (according to Law).

(36: 40)

everything goes in order.you meet someone right for you.you know the rest of story:)

p/s: sunnatullah.that's the key.

chapter 1: model scout

2009-12-03T09:38:00.000-08:00

1st week of my summer love:

thursday is pasar tani day. my grandma would be the happiest in my house. as my sister always mentioned: going to pasar tani is like going for shopping spree. woman and shopping can't be separated after all:p. my sis would be the driver of the day. to put it more nicely, my granny's companion for going to the market. that's why she's an expert of the fish.just name it, she knows all existed species of fish!haha. for the sake of 'fish' reason, i was forced to go to the market today.

'kakak ikutlah nenek ke pasar, kenal sikit ikan' uttered my mom. that sounds pretty educational.i'm buying with the idea.

the three of us hit the pasar tani. then we stopped by at tis stall,selling seafoods. i was like kids learning their ABC's. i can tell you now how to differentiate tenggiri and ikan parang. ehem. out of no where, there was a guy approaching us.

unknown: assalamualaikum. maaf mengganggu. saya lihat cik ni ada potensi untuk.....

gasp. potential to be a model? i always read the stories behind the successful supermodels. they normally been scouted by the modelling agent.

continued:

unknown: potensi untuk berjaya.

he reached out for his business card. honestly, i keep it.who knows i might need the job in future.hehe.

what intrigued me the most is that the capability of seeing potential. please ignore the the model part.i always in the laidback mode which is sometimes unnecessary. i shouldn't just sit back when i potentially can shine. shining brightly.

reach your dreams.may you become the brightest you can be. at the utmost you can be.

p/s: i went to the workshop for servicing my sis's viva. amazed by how dedicated the mechanics are.FYI, i'm not checking them out or whatsoever.heh.

2009-11-30T07:32:00.000-08:00

cinta memungkinkan segala

i kinda agree with tis.

p/s: ku percaya ada cinta by siti nurhaliza

what makes a song is a song

2009-11-27T09:54:00.000-08:00

2 years consecutively celebrating eid adha at Tampin, call me lucky please.

friend: are you a family type?

it's up to your definition of 'family type'. it has broad spectrum of definition.like beauty lies in the eyes of beholder. you might define beauty with pointed nose, fair skin or being skinny.it is relative and subjective.

please appreciate what we have today. it's the key to happiness. i'm still learning bout it too.it ain't easy. ungrateful and hard to be pleased are common occurrence. complaining and jealousy are human nature. despite those, it is possible.

pakngah: kakak, sejak akhir-akhir ni,

monologue: i gain weight.it's obvious i know.

pakngah: kakak makin kurus.

auw, that makes you my favorite pakcik, pakngah. haha.

p/s: just realize that my nenek never fails to make us burst into laughter. her jokes i mean.

hot and cold

2009-11-10T02:22:00.000-08:00

it was scorching in Melbourne since last week. it was like really hot. u'll get sweating even while having your meal. unlike jogging during winter. heh. and luckily it's exam week.it means that i don't have to be outside. i make myself grounded for this pass few days. the scorching days are so unusual when comparing to the last November. there must be tweets or FB status related to this 'hotness'. but this is not the case during winter. it was freezing cold, no doubt. i do not restrained myself from going out that time. it's not a big deal.cause somehow i'm feeling the coldness won't hurt me as much as the scorching days. it feels like i'm gonna be okay. i can survive the coldness if i'm putting more gpieces of clothes. how to survive scorching days? whatever it is, hopefully we dress according to what we are.

girl: OMG.our boys might having difficulties in lowering their gaze during this summer. this summer is hot.but the girls getting hotter.

then 2 topless guys passing by. girls gotta lower their gaze too:p

all about SWOT vac

2009-11-04T21:28:00.000-08:00

1. this is officially the 1st week of SWOT VAC for tis sem
2. at 4th sem that i only know what's SWOT VAC stands for.it's study without teaching vacation.how's flattering is that. i used to think tis acronym stands for Strength, Weaknesses, Opportunity and Threat. 1 week wouldn't be enough for that.
3. i would love if the SWOT VAC being extended for 2 weeks
4. there is high susceptibility of weight gain. been starving all the time.6x meals a must.owh, missing those times at MRSM. Dewan Selera to be exact.
5. just realize the fact that it's the first time of proper revision in the sem.for most of the subjects.
6.been grateful that 'give up' never cross her mind.
7. wanna wish my readers best of luck for the coming exams.it's not bout what's waiting on the other side, it's the climb:)

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,

1.Proclaim! (or read!) in the name of thy Lord and Cherisher, Who created-

2. Created man, out of a (mere) clot of congealed blood:

3. Proclaim! And thy Lord is Most Bountiful,-

4. He Who taught (the use of) the pen,-

5. Taught man that which he knew not. (al-'Alaq, 1-5)

is she Blair?

2009-11-01T12:44:00.000-08:00

kakak, i always wanna update my blog..but it seems i failed to do so.

not updating blog for 1 week gives her headache. of course not. but it's one of the concerns lately.
hik. i always have tis urge to update the blog but ended up with blank stare at blank pages. i couldn't think the best words to write on my blog. enough for the whining. btw, speaking of updates, my house mates and i have tis new rule. i should put it as culture instead.we gotta to speak English when having our meals together.haha. it's funny yet so cute in a way. it's not just about ' can i have the petai?' basis questions. we tried to go deeper in our conversation. those girlish stuffs etc. like does pink lip gloss match with yellow outfit? i'm bluffing. where's the honesty waheeda? haha. i really enjoying the chaos when we burst into laughter. haha . i couldn't say more. have a meal with us and you know what i mean. yup, bring your lunch box too. not the empty one.

p/s: i used to have tis 'bla' feeling when i heard someone speaking in English (for Malays obviously. i can't blame Justin Timberlake) . but know i have tis 'blair' feeling. it means awesomeness. u can speak 2 languages fluently. who knows maybe the 3rd one could be arabic.
' ana waheeda'. 'ana talibah'. ' ana jamilah' (giggle). alert: they are not 3 ana siblings or whatsoever. ana means 'i am'. waheeda is my name.talibah means a female student. jamilah is.... ask your ustaz instead. you wouldn't trust me if i'm saying i am pretty.haha.

non recyclable.

2009-10-26T01:51:00.000-07:00

sneak peek of my exam:

16/11: pharmaco

17/11: drugs that shape society

19/11: techniques in molecular science

20/11: biotechnology

25/11- 24/2/2010: summer break

i know.3 months break is like ages? aren't they? i should start planning for my summer break.literally after exam revision i suppose. bear in mind Waheeda, time can't be recycled. once you let it go, it won't come back. who knows tis might be the last long break.even maternity leave won't be as long as this.unless u married to your boss.

and the reason is U

2009-10-19T22:10:00.000-07:00

consecutively heart breaking posts make me sick.hehe.i know it makes my wonderful readers sick too:) enough of melancholic chapter.let's move on. i bumped into my friend that is 8 months heavily pregnant. she's blooming i can tell you.she's so happy. i can see that.and i'm happy for her too. she told me how nervous she is as she'll be due in 4 weeks time. and there i am cheering her up.that's only can i do. urm speaking of angel, i just found out that my ex classmate just get hitched:) she's officially Mrs now. and the lucky man none other than that someone i know. i'm totally startled as i never expect that she's going to get married at this age. again, i'm happy for her. i'll make sure that we'll be the wedding crashers. no i'm not going to.i'll be his best man.NO. i'll be her guest:)
being here at tis moment really change my perspective. i used to think that marriage is typical. i mean that everyone has to get married.cos that's the way it is.no reasons and no doubt for marriage. but now i learn that there must be valid reasons for getting married.i respect those reasons.

i met one bangladeshi woman in prayer room.she was with her son.

Are you married?

her question breaking the silence. yet breaking my heart too.haha.

No. I am not. I'm 21 but lots mistaken me as 27-28 years old.

i've tried my best to justify her question.

hopefully there's wife material qualities in me instead of looking old.
wait who says mama can't look hot and young? my mom is one of the hot mamas:)

You.Tubes.Me.

2009-10-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

p/s: that explains a lot bout my absurd results all tis while. at least it's still before the test.

words speak louder than action?

2009-10-16T16:49:00.000-07:00

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since he brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a guy like that?

it's fair and square

2009-10-16T16:39:00.000-07:00

Lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik,
Lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat.

That's rule of thumb. so i can't do anything if u wanna be a jerk. but hopefully u'll find light along the way. it's genuine hope.trust me. and to all wonderful and amazing persons out there, never stop being yourself.cause you'll find there will be a happy ending.trust me.have faith in Him.

u'll be tested

2009-10-14T01:12:00.000-07:00

there's not always smooth-sailing in life. we might achieve whatever we dream of but at the same time we might lose something. there are lot of things on my plate lately. stuffs involve with emotional attachment sort of thing. i learn a lot.how people being selfish yet still being able to justify their actions. how people easily lost in worldly desires; wealth, beauty, power and status.just name it.worldly desires will never find an ending. we engaging too much in adornment and straying away from the truth.

Dear Allah, make me strong enough to brave the storms. make my beloved ones strong enough too. draw us near You.

quotes from movie called 'Waitress'

are you happy?

i'm happy enough.

the keyword is enough.

don't speak

2009-10-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

i always have tis big sigh when day approaching night lately. it's because there's still heaps of things to be done but the day has come to an end.then i think would it be great if u don't have to sleep at night. then i came across one ayat from surah Ibrahim after performing Ishaa:

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
And He hath made subject to you the sun and the moon, both diligently pursuing their courses; and the night and the day hath he (also) made subject to you.

( 14:33)

I shouldn't be complaining bout the nature.He got me.In good way absolutely.

hati kering

2009-10-04T04:55:00.000-07:00

i dont wanna be someone that is heartless.please.
i hate for being one.
Dear Allah, make me the one who can feel their own heart.

p/s: hormonal influence is superb. it's His after all.in fact everything under the sun is all His. do not being not so smart by not asking from Him. I pray that i'm all controlled during lab session tomorrow. and for the prince charming too.i mean later.

aku muzik dan kamu

2009-09-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

Pemain Cinta - Ada Band

Tak habis pikir ku jadinya
Kau bisa membuatku cinta padamu
Meskipun tlah berulang kali
Kau begitu asyik mendua
Sudah cukup saja, sikapi kegilaanmu
Sebelum sukmaku, kau cabik dan perih

Reff :
Wahai dirimu pemain cinta
Penikmat nafsu dunia
Walau dirimu begitu indah
Maaf kau tak pantas bagiku
Direlung kalbu yang terdalam
Getaran asmara masih tersisa
Memang dalam bermain cinta
Kadang kau terlihat sempurna
Eloknya parasmu rabunkan mata batinku
Ku harus berpaling meski kau memohon

Bridge :
Apa yang kau dambakan
Dalam duniamu yang sungguh palsu
Terpikirkah olehmu
Untuk dapatkan cinta yang sejati

i'm so over you

2009-09-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

letting go and get over with something are hard to do. i'm always thinking that i'm good in those things. unfortunately, i am not. i have tendency to forget bout things instead of getting over them.i mean all bitter things here. things that you wish being vanished.
then i remembered one instance when i was 14 i guess.we're out to play bowling. it was family outing. i was unsuccessful in attempt to knock down even a single pin.i ended up crying.seriously.that was so pathetic.i became reluctant to try again. there were great supporters of mine yet i was still in doubt. after the game, we dropped by a souvenir shop nearby. surprisingly, my mum bought me something.it's a fridge magnet. written on it: ' when faced with a challenge, look for a way, not a way out'. i think it shouldn't be stick on the fridge.instead stick on my mind.

p/s: i'm online even it's already asar. then there's a hadeeth on tv 3 saying bout people who procrastinating their solat. that's a worthy reminder. dear Allah, u're so Merciful. i better get going now.

i dont wanna miss a thing

2009-09-25T09:50:00.000-07:00

laughing and reminiscing all day.we even got our duit raya.btw, we're primary school buddy. 12 years of friendship:) home is home after all.

i am so grateful for being right here at tis moment. celebrating raya at hometown is such perfection.i need to admit. being able to see faces of your loved ones.that feeling is beyond description.families, friends or even strangers, they all here.

i'll be missing takbir tampin's version. i grew up listening to tis version.hehe. maybe celebrating raya at Melbourne next year will be a blast? i do have curiosity about the feeling of rayaing at oversea.that's so metaphor. hopefully i'm not crying like a baby on the 1st raya.wish me luck peeps:p

pan-asian

2009-09-22T01:20:00.000-07:00

i bumped into Natasha Hudson. she was in the same flight ( Kota Bharu to KLIA). and of course i'm on economy class.
she wore no make up, she still look good though.she's super slim.
what a small world
and now i'm googling bout her. she's writing on blog too. she has quite impressive and reflective thought. i'm amazed.

p/s: trying not to judge roses by their smells,

of sambal tempoyak

2009-09-18T14:29:00.000-07:00

having sambal tempoyak, sambal ikan sembilang, masak lemak, sushi king 4 breaking fast

btw, i'm home:)

with love :)

2009-09-14T14:04:00.000-07:00

2009 Ramadhan nearly to the end. it's less than a week. how time flies. there were countless iftar invitations and countable times that i really cooked for meal. thanks for all the free iftars;0
what i like bout tis Ramadhan is being able to catch up with my dearies. even it's just sharing a plate of food, it feels we're getting closer someway. unless u're finishing the food, i don't think it works out.haha. lab classes are one of the prominent event. redo the experiments during tis Holy month is all bout patience. being patience even though u screwed up and letting yourself down. every cloud has a silver lining, Waheeda. that what makes my Ramadhan even more special. opportunity for learning life lessons.thank You for that.for everything, the fact that i'll be going back home for Raya..that's perfected my Ramadhan experience. what else can i wish for:)

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Merciful,
O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those before you, that you may acquire Taqwa. (al Baqarah: 183)

Abu Dhar Jundub bin Junadah and Abu Abdul Rahman Mu’adh bin Jabal, radiyallahu anhuma, reported that the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, said:

“Fear Allah wherever you may be; follow up an evil deed with a good one which will wipe (the former) out, and behave good-naturedly towards people.”

[Al-Tirmidhi relates it, saying: It is a good (hasan) Tradition. In some copies he says: It is a good and genuine (hasan and sahih) Hadith.]

Ramadhan, hope to see ya next year. perhaps with heart melting love story.

XOXO

vote for me

2009-09-10T18:09:00.000-07:00

being qualified to vote is significant event once u reached 21 years old. if i were asked back years ago about what it's all bout being 21? 'i can cast my vote during election' definitely would be my answer. there's election thingy going on at uni tis week. candidates from student council basically chasing out each of students. they are everywhere.except in the toilet. they will talk to you on and on so that u'l vote for them.i never being stopped by any of the candidates. not until today. i was rush to the wilson hall.yes peeps i'm gonna sit for my last mid sem test paper. then came a tall guy in red shirt.' hello miss' with very bright smile curved on his lips. he's running for education bureau position and he's from Stand Up party. metaphorically, we're barely to stand up as the wind blew hysterically. 'Dear Allah, do not let my hijab get blew or something'. 'if u want for better education, please vote for us' reminding me.

'Hi'.There u go.i'm lucky. my test would be in about 5 minutes times. ' Do you support Palestine?' she asked me.'Yup'. She unfolded her story. she's representative from Y party.she told me that X party is pro- zionism and they rule for racism. they try to stop any activities related to palestine issue awareness. whereas that's what Y party work for.They conducted for Palestin awareness campaign almost for every semester.they aim for justice and human right.i'm not sure if the claim bout X is true.hopefully it's none other than truth. i was amazed by the fact that even student council want to go against the minority. the world is getting meaner. that's the ugly truth. i changed my mind.i wanna cast my vote for university election.i wanna vote for justice.

p/s: eligible voter for malaysia 's general election too.that would be harder.

u ask for it

2009-09-07T14:36:00.000-07:00

Monday is not my favorite day to be honest. i woke up lazily realizing i have 10 am to 5 pm class.awesomeness.

i haven't finish my report writing too.coolness. so i need to stay at library in pursuit of diligence (mengarut saja). alhamdulillah i made it. that's why i heart you library. being in library can boost your concentration somehow. u'll be paying more attention to random people passing by.nope. i mean doing your academic related stuffs.

the prac class commenced at 2 pm. i've never thought it will be the unusual one. i messed up. seriously messed up whle doing the prac. i forgot to add reagents before incubating solutions. the results derived from experiment are not making sense. forcing me and my pair to stay for 30 minutes after class. i'm seriously do not have an idea on how on earth the demonstrator is so cool whenever we messed up.

we being asked to repeat one of the experiments.cos the result was bizarre. it's like alien.
i felt like crying. it's not about we're not having the good results. i felt exhausted but i need to keep going on. i reminded myself stop being pathetic. this is just one of the rejections.there lots to come in future.especially when you're in working field.

at the end of the class,

Lecturer: Girls, this is example of bad practical habits.
Make sure you do your prac carefully next time.

And i take it as lovely and fatherly concern.and not as warning cos i might be pissed off.

p/s: if you wanna live happily, have a happy life then. the autonomy is all yours. that's the lesson that i learn.

no .i'm not hit on you

2009-09-04T21:06:00.000-07:00

He looks aimlessly. He seems incomplete. He seems worry on something.
That's what the girl thinks.

The girl catches a glimpse on his desk. Empty. She rummages her bag.Looking for something that can be offered.

Excuse me, do you have an eraser?

Nope

Take this.I do have extra one.

Fantastic.Thank you.

She doesn't has second thought for that. She really hopes that a guy will understand that she's trying to be nice. and not being flirtatious.

abstinence

2009-09-02T04:45:00.000-07:00

Some people argue that abstinence it's NOT the best solution. For example, abstinence from alcohol is believed to be futile attempt to minimize the harms of alcohol.i'm not saying that.but the journal said so (what's wrong type writer?). i do believe that abstinence works best in certain conditions. like prohibition from consuming alcohol, prohibition from committing adultery. it's to keep us away from the harmful effects. it's like prohibition from using lift when there's fire onset. emergency stairs need to be used in this situation. what i want to reiterate is that in certain times, we need to do things that we need to do.not what we want to do.

p/s: the abstinence from do shopping seems to work out. big claps for me:)

I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THE RAIN

2009-08-31T06:59:00.000-07:00

6 assignments and 4 mid sem tests. i dont wanna make it sounds like whining.more to reminder for myself. but i do have complaints.that's human nature.i already sat for the 1st test this morning.it was awesome (being positive is good enough for now). honestly, this semester really makes me feel like university student. it's not like i'm wearing uniform to uni before.haish.it's all about being independent.here comes all the philosophy ya. i wanna being a passionate learner.that's the ultimate goal. Passion. then in the midst of busyness, i started to realize that it's about 3 weeks before going back home:) it's more than enough to make my heart leaps.

So,verily with every difficulty, there is relief
Verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.

al-Insyirah, 6-7

p/s: keep going on peeps.there's always relief comes with difficulty.it's an immortal promise.

Mari Mengaji

2009-08-26T06:46:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan and Noble Quran is strongly associated.Like Upin and Ipin.Even trillions much more stronger relationship. there is no BFF that can beat them.

"The month of Ramadan is the one in which the Quran was sent down, a guidance for mankind, clear proofs for the guidance, the Criterion; so whoever amongst you witnesses this month, let him fast it.

(2:185)

Further, Fatimah (may Allah be pleased with her) narrated from her father (may Allah bless him and grant him peace), who told her that Jibril would rehearse the Quran with him (in Ramadan) once every year, and he did so twice in the year of his death. (Bukhari 6/485)

After all, Noble Quran is His words. Primary source, it's not being quoted.That makes Quran magnificent.

p/s: selamat membaca:)

orang putih ke?

2009-08-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

english is my second language. what's an obvious statement here. i never imagined that i ended up doing my degree at the country which English is the native language. i do have problems when it comes to language barrier. i always opt to keep silent. very unwise one. being able to deliver my opinions in class is an achievement. the marks doesn't matter:p i already in my 4th sem of my degree. i only have 1 same class with my 'biotech buddy' ( hopefully you are reading tis miss nazihah). i thought i would be a loner (loner can rock the world too.if you are like peyton sawyer).
thanx God, i'm not a loner. i have few new friends that i met during class. they are mostly chineses.who cares. this enforces me to communicate in English. not just 'asking queries based communication' anymore. we do have academic conversation, girls conversation and daily basis conversation. it's so metaphor when being 21 make u realize that u should practicing English, which should be realized when you are 12. whatever it is, i'm glad cos it adds color to my life. at least in future, i do not exaggerate the anxiousness to speak in English.

p/s:i am malay drama lover.nur kasih to be exact.

it's RAMADHAN people

2009-08-21T22:52:00.000-07:00

we're already in Ramadhan month:) a blessed month and yup a month before eid...yip hooray.
my stomach making weird sounds as if it's my first time fasting.sigh.it's okay then it's the first day of Ramadhan.

Ramadhan alert:

- say no to purchase idle talk
- lower your gaze waheeda, i know that's hard. it's just like turning the volume down while listening to your favorite song ever.then it's achievable.
- do not overeating, overspending. all the OVERs are dont's.
- fully utilize your Ramadhan

wishing all of you the best and blast Ramadhan ever. Hope u'll find what you wish for in tis Ramadhan:)

p/s: kalau suka cakap suka.jangan ambil kesempatan ok.loud yet truthful.double wink.

tips rambut cantik

2009-08-17T15:34:00.000-07:00

yay. trip with house mates to Mornington was a blast.yippie. we even had our very 1st horse
riding at some place. 38 aud for 50 minutes. that's pretty affordable if u're not converting to ringgit malaysia please. adrenaline rushed in my body.anxiety strikes me. have i done the right thing. or should i wait for 50 minutes instead of riding horse? i do not mind give a helping hand to feed the horses what ever. then something popped out:

And Who has created all the pairs and has appointed for you ships and cattle on which you ride, In order that you may mount firmly on their backs, and then may remember the Favour of your Lord when you mount thereon, and say: "Glory to Him who has subjected this to us, and we could never have it (by our efforts)."

Az-Zukhruf ( 12-13)

That is dua' for riding vehicles. it's applicable for horse riding too. i feel quite relieved. the horse would be nice to me.hopefully. i ended up as last person while getting our helmets ( i do realize that my head is exquisitely large..haha).

her: it's okay to wear hijab, but you need to let your hair down.it wont fit your helmet.

me: grin.making cute faces.

her: i used to wear hijab before.

me: making jokes. no i am not. ( wait..is it HIJAB? or hedge? or hijb?)

her honesty slammed my subconsciousness. i just wanna fantasizing a fairytale story. a princess who loves to ride and loved by horses ...haha. then comes the prince checking me out if i'm okay. enough waheeda. u might throw up sausages u had for breakfast.

i appreciated her honesty.really appreciated it. she unfolded her story throughout 50 minutes riding. thanks to Sally, i ended up as last horse rider too.i maybe missed the story if i'm not the last person.Sally might be eavesdropping too.haish gossip folk sungguh. mentang mentang kuda yg girlie ( kuda betina sounds mean.heh). i'm more to listening rather than giving responses while she unfolded her story.i do wanna say something. but i couldn't. deep down inside i hope she'll find the light. i wanna tell her and the whole world that :Allah is most compassionate.

p/s: .yearning for beach horse riding.

when i grow up

2009-08-13T01:56:00.000-07:00

When i grow up,

i wanna be anything that i could think of. i wanna be tv presenter, i wanna be teacher, i wanna be model, i wanna be businesswoman.the list goes on and on.

When i grow up,

i wanna marry my prince charming. i wanna have happy ending fairytale story. i wanna have big family.

Now, i want to grow up to be sincere person in everything i do. i want to grow up to be as happy as i can. i want to grow up appreciating those around me. i want to grow up understanding myself better. i want to grow up becoming a good woman.

unni.oppa.ahjushi

2009-08-10T06:53:00.000-07:00

today is Monday. i never know that most people hate Monday until i came here. that makes sense.it's the 1st day of week to kick off after spending the weekends leisurely. i'm only wishing Monday would be smooth- sailing day, a good day just like any other days. let me recap this week Monday's story. i met with 2 Chinese friends and a random Korean traveler. interesting. i met them in the same day. one of them is my ex- tute mate a year ago. one of them is my prac mate that i will be seeing for the next 12 weeks. and i'm not sure if i'll be seeing the third one in future.she's Korean traveler that asked me for direction. past,present and future:)
only the present that can be controlled. past remain in our memory. while future can only be planned and subjected to circumstances. i found one related saying:

Imam Ali RA. Ia melukiskan bahwa "saat" itu hanya ada tiga, iaitu (yang) berlalu dan tak dapat diharapkan lagi, maka jadikanlah ia sebagai pelajaran; (yang) kini pasti adanya, jadikanlah ia peluang; dan yang akan datang, tapi ingatlah, boleh jadi ia akan menjadi milik orang lain. Pegang yang pasti, jangan diperdaya oleh esok, dan jangan pula menghadirkan keresahan esok ke hari ini. Kerana, yang demikian itu hanya akan menambah beban diri. "Tahukah Anda bagaimana waktu mencuri usia manusia?" demikian seorang bijak bertanya dengan nada yang retorik. Ia menjawab, "Waktu mencurinya melalui hari esok yang melalaikannya tentang hari ini (dengan menunda), sampai usianya habis".

p/s: not so bad Monday:)

busybody la

2009-08-08T03:15:00.000-07:00

the new sem just started for about 2 weeks. but seriously it feels like 12 weeks. there's already assignments, homeworks etc. stop whining waheeda.PLEASE.

if u cant reach me on phone. if i don't reply ur sms. pardon me. if i'm not there when i suppose to.i'm sorry. i just get to know what's like being busy. i only used to be busybody. that kind of thing.that's my flaw.

Sekalian makhluk yang ada di langit dan di bumi sentiasa berhajat dan memohon kepadaNya. Tiap-tiap masa Ia di dalam urusan (mencipta dan mentadbirkan makhluk-makhlukNya)

(Ar Rahman: 29)

ask from Him indeed:) He never leave us even He's extremely busy.u always can reach Him.

p/s: favorite quote of the day: If u catch the sun, your shadow will follow you.

over you

2009-08-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

i always thought that i can get over things easily. that's not the case.
i saw the cat on my way to class. he's like Garfield. i couldn't stop myself from touching Garfield.it feels like ages that i haven't touch cat.

Bye bye Garfield. Tears welled in my eyes. He reminds me of someone. Someone that already gone. But life must move on. There are certain things that u cant get over them. cause they are part of you. if we get over them, how's the other part can move on? we will be incomplete.

jangan ada benci

2009-08-04T05:39:00.000-07:00

Do not judge people
because we might have no time to love them

buat aku tersenyum

2009-08-01T00:26:00.000-07:00

i was totally rejected the idea for cycling to university. i am so mesmerized by the fact that some juniors cycling to uni.it was nearly 30 minutes cycling i reckon. they look petite yet their physical strength not to be underestimated. furthermore, i never cycling on road. house's compound area, that's the only territory. i cannot imagining clumsy me on bicycle get honked by drivers. until one fine day, i got the chance to cycle.thanx 2 housemate. her old skool bicycle is irresistible. i was like the 4 years old girl got her 1st bike. they were several potential victims that day.they can tell that i'm not used to cycling. alhamdulillah, nobody gets injured.we arrived home safely that day. then 2nd time, i got the chance to cycle again. we're cycling around the park. the feeling is like when u're on merry goes around. serious talk. thus makes me contemplate to buy 2nd hand bike:)
still undecided..we will see. cycling can be listed as one of things that make me happy. how i wish every encounter can amuse you. can curve your smile. one more thing is that life is all about changes. maybe in future you'll like something that you dislike for years. we never know. just ask Him for the best. doesn't matter riding a bike or driving truck makes you happy. just ask Him. He always hear us. forever and always.

p/s: 'Kita memang tidak boleh menjadi orang lain,tapi kita boleh menjadi orang yang lebih baik'. enough said.

pilihlah aku jadi pacarmu

2009-07-26T15:36:00.000-07:00

i used to think that MCQ is way more easier than any other question types (short answer, essay etc). cos they are options given. we only have to make a guess which one is the right option aka the appropriate answer. but that's not the case. even there are possible answers, we still have to choose one answer.circle only one answer. the options given are tricky ones. they seems right but they are not. that's so my 1st week in sem 4. i learned a lot when it comes to making decision. there are plenty choices, but you only need the definite one to decide. u wanna wear red socks or yellow socks? u make the choice. i'm changing my subjects over and over again. i do not want to be regret.that's why i keep changing them.i do feel that i've chosen the best subjects for me. now, i rest my case.pray to Him that i'll be alright. pray to Him that i'll be fine.most importantly pray to Him that i never leave Him.even the subjects are so whatever.never leave Him even i'm doing well.

p/s: feeling more like grown-up.

milik siapakah jejaka ini

2009-07-24T10:02:00.000-07:00

my bf looks like shah rukh khan. with dark hair and dark skin.

he's not mine. let me clear things up. he's someone bf. natasha. girl sat next to me during flight back to Melbourne. what a household name. even young girl from oz knows him. that's not my point.
people always wanna make comparisons. comparisons to justify ourselves.totally my humble opinion.

p/s: favorite quote of the day: Islam will never leave you. Never.

full stop

2009-07-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

it has been about 5 years. 5 years that i paid the last respect to the deceased. i mean attending sort of memoir. managing the funeral process sort of. i had experience one when my last uncle died nearly 5 years ago. that was the very 1st time i loss someone who is really close and part of me. i learn how it feels losing someone that is matter to you. how's heartwrenching is that. i learn what our days will be without him.

***********************present********************
we received a call from mum while having breakfast at kopitiam. Tok Nor has been confirmed his death by the hospital.Innalillahhirrajiu'n. he's cousin of my grandma.considered as our atok. when we arrived there his family pay their last respect. his children kissed his forehead for very last time. the tears welled in their eyes. then they performed solat jenazah before brought the coffin to nearby mosque. it's different feeling from 5 years ago.

life must come to an end.
if it's not today, it will be someday.
just have a go whatever we wanna do.
just have a courage to tell whatever we wanna tell.
before life ends. like how full stop ends a sentence.

p/s: death is worthwhile reminder for those alive.

geum jan di

2009-07-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

pernahkah kau merasa
jiwamu kosong

pernah. frankly, i really hate that feeling. aimless, weaknesses strike my soul. sedangkan banyak yang menanti di luar sana. i wanna be miss sunshine. miss optimistic. aja aja fighting>>>

hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller

2009-07-13T21:20:00.000-07:00

we learn a lot from our real life. things that make us happy or things that upset us. most of them are beyond our control. we can plan to be a happy people. yes we can. but it can turn out to vice versa due to unforeseen circumstances. that's what i mean. hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller. that we have full control over it. life is ain't easy as sitting on the couch and tuning into astro channels. tuning into another channels when we get sick of watching particular tv channel. instead we need to move on in life.there's no such thing as rewind. hidup ini juga bukan seperti dvd player. you can't twist the past but you can fix them in present or in the future.

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim
Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir"

risks when it is risky

2009-07-09T16:23:00.000-07:00

people choose to be risk taker when there's great extent of uncertainties. it's better make a risk move than doing nothing. like a guy tried his luck to propose someone to be his wife. there's a 1:1 risk.whether being accepted or rejected. it's better than just sit back in hope for getting hitched someday. however one should be prepared to bear the consequences, the risks for being risk taker. keep an open mind and open heart. do not stressed out if unexpected outcomes are encountered. after all, being risk taker the one that u chose. if not just play safe buddy.

p/s: my advice: do not ever tempted to take a risk when it comes to Iman and Islam. going clubbing in the name of being risk taker? there's no room for being risk taker whatsoever. naudzubillah. cos life itself is already risky. we never know if we can be best of muslim in the future. instead go crabbing. yummylicious. i used to think clubbing is like actively participate in clubs such as stamp collecting, kelab pengakap etc.haha.

secret admirer: die baik tak weh?
informer: BAIK. dye tak clubbing.

the secret admirer burst out into laugh. forgive her. that's the first thing that amused her in a day long. baik and amusing itu subjective :)

2009-07-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

BRAND NEW DAY
HOPEFULLY BRAND NEW ME TOO

teman tapi mesra

2009-07-07T23:40:00.000-07:00

i would like to make confession here. exclusively in my princess diaries. i am with someone now. with Danish. i'm the lucky one. i can watch astro ceria freely. he doesn't care. i can watch free performances. malay songs, indo songs, even japan songs..just name it. ain't no other man like you Danish:) ain't no other. he insists to follow me to Melbourne.but i do not think it's a bright idea. there will be speculations man. just wait for me when i'm there. i will be back.

invitation to the truth

2009-07-07T23:28:00.000-07:00

surgamu by Ungu.

ASL please

2009-07-06T23:35:00.000-07:00

there's trend to chatting online long time ago. chatting randomly. the first question they would ask is asl. ASL? i used to think that acronym stands for asal. pardon me as i'm only 10 years old that time. actually it stands for age, sex and location.ROFL. aku mahu menulis tentang sesuatu. tentang ASL. asalku since i'm back home now. i'm proudly from Tampin. somewhere in Negeri Sembilan:)
unlike Rembau, Tampin is not really well known for their adat pepatih. seriously my friend hailed from Penang can answer better than me regarding these adat thingy. we're not really fully practicing adat pepatih. there's no MCD in Tampin. we only have 1 KFC, 1 Pizza Hut and recently Secret Recipe. thanx 2 us for contributing to KFC's revenues since many years ago. we're celebrating birthday at KFC. We have small gathering at KFC. Even bid farewell at KFC.KFC should feel indebted.haha. i do not care about how many fastfood outlets we have here. what Tampin is does matter to me. Tampin is like Texas to me. Tampin is my home. people that part of me are here.

p/s: i really want to upload pics in my princess diaries. slow internet connection do not allow me to do so. it's alrite Tampin.i still heart you.xoxo.

sabarlah sayang

2009-07-05T17:27:00.000-07:00

i've thought that i have become more patient lately. but i'm not.especially when it comes to talking. i wanna tell lots of things until i blurted them out inappropriately. it hurts people. and it hurts me too. i just cant control my emotion when saying those things. it makes me realize it has never been easy to be patient.

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Most Merciful,

And We shall try you until We test those among you who strive their utmost and persevere in patience; and We shall try your reported (mettle).

Surah Muhammad (47:31)

bear with my imperfection.

how do i look

2009-07-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling fat now. i presume i gain kilos since few months ago. it's upset me. not that much. i still consume foods for pleasure.

Narrated Abû Hurairah : Allah’s Messenger said, “Allah looks not at your figures, nor at your outward appearance but He looks at your hearts and deeds.”(Muslim)

that's ultimate beauty. no one can ever see. the beauty that is not subjected to explicit judgment.
the timeless beauty. the beautiful skin might be wrinkled one day. but the beautiful deeds are immortal. even we are no longer here, the good deeds continually benefit others.

understood?

2009-07-05T08:29:00.000-07:00

misunderstanding can lead to many disastrous outcomes. if it's not that disastrous it might be unfavorable. as an example, the cake might not tasted as cake if the recipe is misunderstood. the 20 years of marriage will meet an end caused by just one misunderstanding. the child will left unattended when there's misunderstanding bout responsibility. being understood bout things that we need to do is very crucial. the understanding of something is like syllabus.
i wish that i could understand bout all things evolve around me. but that's pretty impossible. what's possible is to understand things that closest to us. first and foremost is to understand about ourselves. to understand about who we are. then u'll get to understand bout the related ones:)

high heels vs terompah

2009-07-02T07:38:00.000-07:00

my 1st shopping treat after exam was to IBC ( Islamic Book Centre) . i'm longing for long skirt since months ago.i do not care how do i look in skirts as far as i can scavenge skirts there (way too brutal> scavenger) . i went there and begun my scavenger hunt. few skirts chosen for fitting. as usual, u do not look good in all skirts. you should be lucky if u able to find one that fits u perfectly. i made my choice. then i'm browsing the book collection. there are lots of good stuffs. from how becoming a good daughter to a mithali wife..auwww. i end up picked up 5 books. what? i'm not even reading the whole newspaper articles. i torn between skirt and books. i rarely reading books but surely wearing tis skirt. the verdict is i'm choosing to buy books.i can get 5 books with the same price of a skirt.there u go,becoming wiser spender. hopefully i will read them during tis winter hols.and i'm sure there will be more skirts back home. much more cheaper i presume.

p/s: Harun Yahya. google him.quite brilliant author.

saat pencarian

2009-07-02T07:28:00.000-07:00

a lot of things tangled in my mind
lots that i wanna tell
but i couldn't find how to tell them
go find yourself. u will find you in the searching.

p/s: smith st tomorrow is a must. in searching of pencil case.lalala.

InshaAllah

2009-06-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

i get to know about eskimo joe while in my flight to tassie recently. their brand new album entitled InshaAllah. it's kinda cute. if it's Hijjaz or Raihan's album, it'll be expected.

In an interview with Australian radio station Triple J, lead singer Kav Temperley revealed that the album title is an Arabic word.

It basically translates to 'what will be will be' but the literal translation is 'God willing'. It's a really beautiful Arabic word and it basically means a resignation to fate, like you're kind of letting the chips lie where they will. The people in the Arabic world use it all the time, they use it for like, 'who knows?

p/s: will Eskimo Joe learn more about Arabic language?
we will see. InsyaAllah.

itu kamu

2009-06-25T07:01:00.000-07:00

i rarely writing personal stuffs in my blog. especially about people around me and my beloved ones.

ADIKKU

THANX 4 CUSTOMIZING MY PRINCESS DIARIES LAYOUT. I'M FEELING MUCH MORE LIKE PRINCESS NOW=0 AND I CANT WAIT FOR BEING HOME TOO. HAVING OUR DAILY ARGUMENTS OR SHOULD I SAY SISTERLY BOND :) THERE'S ALWAYS CAT FIGHT. EVEN CATS WONDER BOUT OUR FIGHT.HEH. THAT'S BECAUSE WE'RE ONLY HAVE 1 ANOTHER AS SISTER. I AM YOUR ONLY BIG SISTER. NO CHOICE.HEHE. SO I'M GOING TO WAIT PATIENTLY UNTIL THE DAY HAS COME. THE DAY I'M GOING TO MEET U SOON:)

SISTERHOOD CAN SURVIVE ANYTHING

till we meet again uni:p

2009-06-23T01:20:00.000-07:00

after 4 days, i'm finally out from my apartment. Thanx to a friend for making the initiative to discuss pass year papers. i couldn't stop smiling on my way to uni. i couldn't stop gazing passer by. i couldn't stop humming melody. lagu gembira, lagu cinta. it's totally different feeling. cant even be compared to having nasi three times a day. incomparable to the feeling of relaxing at home.
yay..finally i made it. studying in the library during exam week. there were dedicated staffs and very few students. lots of computers were available. i'm imagining myself downloading videos, movies etc. that's what i did during last sem. so noneducational things to be done at library huh. we're having quite serious discussion for like 2+ hours before decided to have our lunch.

me: where are we going to have lunch? ( buat2 tanya)

her: seriously up to you.

me: urmmmmm...es teller nak? the environment is conducive for revising.

her: nodding in agree/ or sign of being forced?

then, we chose notes to be revised while having our lunch.

her: notes about amino acid. there are 20 amino acids to be memorized. grin.

me: yup. notes about glycolysis too.

the food was good. but we're not tempted to just leave the notes aside.

her: tell me about lysine?

me: bla bla...serine?

her: bla..bla..

we're heading back approximately 3 pm. i'm gonna miss tis.rare moment when discussing educational stuffs. rather than complaining on weight. whining about piled up assignment. or criticizing people/ judging others.rather than purchase idle talk.

p/s: uni waits for me. i'll be back for sem 4.insyaAllah. how time flies. plus as 21 years old student 2. how flattering is that:p

OZness

2009-06-20T01:03:00.000-07:00

all the best for your exam kakak. i'll be praying for your H1 :)

my heart skips a beat. adrenaline rushing through my body. this might be mis typo. it should be hopefully u'll not getting H1. Wait. it's H1 la. the grade. sort of scoring A for your subject.i want.i want. mum's prayer is a magical. the 8th of wonders.

p/s: prefer for swine flu.instead of H1N1. it maybe can confuse the lecturers too.the one in microbiology department particularly.

2009-06-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

make sure u do your laundry before going to Tassie

kata ibu dengar sahaja

dan sebenarnya

2009-06-18T02:39:00.000-07:00

He loves you.

U might be kidding me.is it a prank? Come on Ashton. Come Out. i've been punked.whateva.

He truly loves you.

Tell me why.

Here's the proof. read it. u will know.u will understand.

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim

When those come to thee who believe in Our signs, Say: "Peace be on you: Your Lord hath inscribed for Himself (the rule of) mercy: verily, if any of you did evil in ignorance, and thereafter repented, and amend (his conduct), lo! He is Oft- forgiving, Most Merciful.

Why did i not even realize bout tis. bout His love?

He's always there. always there. we will not discover anything if we're not looking for it. or thinking bout it. we will not knowing if we're not remembering something.

Seperti udara yang ku hela
Kau selalu ada.

i can't tell you enough how He loves us. open up your mind and see clearly. open up your heart then u can feel.to Him is our hope. our prayer. our desire.

i led astray. i forgetting Him. i ignore Him.

On the authority of Anas (may Allah be pleased with him), who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah (PBUH) say: Allah the Almighty said:

O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great at it.

Dear Allah. Forgive me for every sins i've committed. Dear Allah, makes me the one that always loves You no matter what happens.Dear Allah, makes me the one that who will You guide. Dear Allah, makes me the one who always be by Your side.

hip hip hooray

2009-06-15T03:44:00.000-07:00

kalau anda gembira
tepuk tangan
kalau ada gembira
beginilah caranya
kalau anda gembira tepuk tangan.

reminiscing old memory. menyanyi di dalam bulatan. scream the lungs out.make sure it's a big circle.the more the merrier.haha.how's time flies. you don't have necessarily 2 do that.it's not the only way to express happiness.there are a lot of expressions. would you rather look cute? cool? annoying? here's the suggestions:

- static.be static. as if nothing happens.even you just score goal or something.just be maintained and be in control.

- bright up the day.make others curve their smile. make others be happy to be around us.

- shedding tears. do you notice that sometimes tears fall easily when we're so happy in getting something.

- praising Him.Alhamdulillah. our Creator.cos the happiness is beyond description. beyond universe. how one miss call or one sms can make you leap ecstatically.

la tahzan. do not be sad.jangan bersedih.
be content of what you have now. cos we're never know if we still have them around.tidak akan tenang hati kecuali dengan mengingati Allah.

2009-06-12T04:22:00.000-07:00

cobaan

2009-06-12T02:59:00.000-07:00

Berkecamuk Hati
Hatinya sendiri
Di luarnya tenang
Tapi Tuhan saja tahu

p/s: 3 more to go. sabar sabar.there will be an ending.will be.

old skool

2009-06-11T17:12:00.000-07:00

kunci ajaib

21 years- 6 years = 15 years as student
ikhlaskan kami ya Rabb:)

ada apa dengan exam

2009-06-09T20:59:00.000-07:00

microb paper is hard. seriously killer paper. or i do not have sufficient revision? or i do not really grip the concepts presented in lecture? what will be my score?

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim

And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is ((Allah)) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (At-Thalaq: 3)

i shouldn't think that way. i shouldn't. I should put whole faith in Him. I should trust Him more than anything. the unconditional faith and trust. the same faith when i knew that i'll be safe from drowning.The same faith when i knew i should go for Intec rather than Curtin Uni in Kuching. the same faith when i knew ending a relationship is a start of something. forgive me for that doubt.i shouldn't doubt bout You. i do not deserved to.

so i keep my fingers crossed for microb paper.lembutkan hati examiner. let them enjoying my paper like enjoying Shakespere's masterpiece (masih adakah peminat sastera? of course la ade.heh) .

p/s: usaha dan tawakal is like toothbrush and toothpaste. u need both to brush your teeth.the missing of one causes imperfection.

.Hujan.

2009-06-08T01:13:00.000-07:00

me and hujan:

1. it has been 'hujan' since few days ago. which is rare occurrence actually.

2. love the feeling when it is hujan. but strokes of lightning killing the imagination. yup imaginasi romantik. thanx 2 Yusuf Haslam's films.haha.

3. new discovered favorite band: Hujan. yippie.
Bapanya mahukannya jadi seorang askar
Bukan cita-citanya
Bukan impiannya
*so cool. maybe u can replace cikgu, polis, perdana menteri etc. whatever wannabe occupations insisted by your parents.

4. lastly, hujan itu rahmat:)
recite the dua whenever the rain falling down. insyaAllah termakbul. hujan itu bukan sekadar hujan. hujan itu extraordinary.

penjara pudu

2009-06-07T00:48:00.000-07:00

i haven't see the outside world since 4 days ago
poor me. i only see cars passed by main road through my window.
i only see joggers through my window.argggh..i wish i can jog like them too (i bet :p)
seperti di Penjara Pudu.
so i've decided.
Port Melbourne here i come
yeeha

2009-06-04T04:03:00.000-07:00

Hold me tight
Forever
Cos i'm not sure if i can find You tomorrow

Dr House

2009-06-02T17:37:00.000-07:00

Dr House: how can i help you?

Meredith grey: i caught with fever dr. i have runny nose.i'm coughing and sneezing too. plus muscle pain. ( meredith has been rehearsed these symptoms with medical students. to avoid humiliation).

Dr House: where are you from?

Meredith Grey: Malaysia (butterfly effect in her stomach)

Dr House: which part?

Meredith Grey: Negeri Sembilan.

Dr house: ???. let me check the map 1st.

Meredith Grey: what? not even on the map. sigh. it's somewhere here.between Kl and Johore.

Dr House: oic. ok then. u've been infected by upper respiratory virus.

Meredith Grey: it's not swine flu right?curiosity reflected.

Dr House: nope. flu and cold are different. flu is much more severe.

Meredith Grey: alhamdulillah.
************************************************************************************
in a way going to clinic makes a wonderful day for Meredith. it's not just about being sick. but quite a lot of things that she learned:

.cold is not flu. cold caused by viral infection.
. don't have to be nervous when seeing dr. they're just people. with dr title.that's it. dr can be funny. they aint serious all the time. they are not frowning 24 hours. then there will be no mcdreamy :p

tomok.bukan momok.

2009-06-02T01:14:00.000-07:00

here's a phenomenal talent that impress us. susan boyle. i did cry when watching her debut performance in Britain Got Talent. cried over how the skeptical can be swept away only by her beautiful voice. touched by her honesty in being herself. she's been in spotlight.however she's end up in 1st runner up. quite unexpected. currently, she's being admitted into the clinic/hospital. another shock. she's been described as mentally exhausted. maybe due to the intense competition.or high expectation. or unplanned media attention. they all my assumptions. pity her. being on top sometimes pull you down. drastically. our position is sufficient for us. that's why i never won any singing contest in primary school i guess. the judges deliberately choose others cos they know i cant stand the popularity.haha. God knows best after all.

bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,

Fighting is prescribed for you, and ye dislike it. But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not. ( Al Baqarah: 216)

p/s: in searching 4 that confidence. how am i so confident to sing in front of public when my voice blared like old speaker? haha. nope. i'm not planning to be next Tomok whatsoever.

13 going on 30

2009-05-31T14:20:00.000-07:00

there's some time i'm feeling that i'm a little bit matured ahead or oldies should i say:p
physically obviously. people do think i'm in high school when i was in standard 4 something. much more surprised there's people thought i'm currently doing master (looking smart or looking old). i'm rather assuming the first one. there's even senior presumed i am Mara officer when we met at Mara office. haha. tis is quite extreme. how do i look in 5 years time? u can do the maths and prediction. maybe like pensioner? nauzubillah. enough said. being matured is not just on looking older than your actual age. it's much more than that. there'll be an urge to be a sensible grown up.that's one sure thing. we can't escape from being matured. that's fated metamorphosis. or sunnatullah. i learn a lot in my metamorphosis. with infinity diversification. with a lot of people. thank you for that. i had tis sort of 'heart 2 heart conversation' with my friend. a really long one. i'm touched by the fact that she cares so much about her beloved.i adore how not selfish is she. i admire her ongoing spirit. simply i respect you :) i learn a lot from u too adik( bajet la 2.haha).a lot. especially about being considerate. care about things that u should care about. not to be forgettten, my 'princess diaries' . i learn to express things that tangled in my mind. things i should say and things that are better left unsaid. more significantly to my emak. i learn to keep going even the journey gets tougher (gosh..make me homesick). i learn do not expect in return what you had give. ya Allah, dah macam surat luahan hati pulak.haha. i would like to share my 13th birthday wish from someone.

' Birthday is not increase in age. Birthday is a further step to maturity.'

p/s: 23 rd July. mark that.my birthday :p

scriptase

2009-05-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

i realize that most of my posts are short lengthen. short as pencil that have been used since kindergarten. which is consistently get sharpened. tis is like compact version of my story. i do take long time when do the talking. so long that the person might try at their best to sustain the interest. i can draw the conclusion that not everyone can write such long posts (blog writing analysis). how's microb analysis waheeda? exam is just not around the corner. already at corner.
i couldn't find what to write most of the time. no wonder i didn't do well in esls essay:p but i'm really into story telling. u could allocate 2 hours 4 'kisah hidup waheeda'. maybe that just 4 primary school part. how many hours needed for entire life story? u can do the maths. basically, if you're interested to know more about the underlying story, just buzz me.appropriately. not in the middle of lecture.and when i'm panting as i'm rushing to the class.i'm more than happy to share.

p/s: an attempt to write longer post

syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu

2009-05-28T14:56:00.000-07:00

Di masa Rasulullah saw hiduplah seorang lelaki yang saleh dan rajin beribadah. Hampir setiap orang mengenalnya sebagai pribadi yang baik dan banyak berzikir. Namun, sungguh-sungguh mengherankan, ketika ia sakit parah dan hampir mendekati waktu ajal, lidahnya seolah-olah terkunci dari kalimat syahadat.
Kerabat dan sahabatnya membisikkan kalimah thayyibah di telinganya berulang-ulang. Namun mulut Al Qamah, nama lelaki itu tetap tak bergeming. Ia terlihat seperti ingin mengucapkan sesuatu, namun gagal. Mereka semua tak habis pikir, bagaimana mungkin seorang yang baik dan rajin beribadah seperti Al Qamah bisa kesulitan menghadapi sakaratul maut?
Maka, mereka pun melaporkan hal ini pada Rasulullah yang segera datang dan menengok kondisi Al Qamah. Ketika melihat betapa beratnya keadaan Al Qamah maka Rasulullah pun bertanya pada para hadirin:
„Apakah Al Qamah masih memiliki orangtua?“
„Ayahnya sudah meninggal ya Rasul, namun Al Qamah masih memiliki seorang ibu yang sudah tua dan lumpuh,“ jawab mereka.
Maka Rasulullah pun meminta Bilal dan Ammar mendatangi ibunda Al Qamah;
“Sampaikan pada Ummu Al Qamah bahwa Rasulullah mengundangnya. Apabila dia mampu, datanglah kemari. Bila tidak, aku yang datang mengunjunginya.”
Ketika ibu Al Qamah diberi tahu perihal undangan dari Rasulullah ini, dia bangkit dan berkata : “Dia adalah Rasulullah, sudah sepantasnya aku yang datang untuk menemuinya.” Lalu, meski semula lumpuh, dengan izin Allah, bunda Al Qamah seketika mampu berjalan dan menemui Rasulullah di kediaman puteranya, Al Qamah.
Setelah menyambut ibu Al Qamah, Rasul pun bertanya padanya dengan lembut, “Wahai ibu, bagaimana kabar Al Qamah selama ini?”
“Dia baik-baik saja. Dia juga seorang hamba Allah yang rajin beribadah, puasa, shalat dan juga selalu siap berjihad.”
“Lalu, bagaimana hubungan Al Qamah dengan ibu akhir-akhir ini?” tanya Rasul lagi.
Sang ibu sedikit terdiam, lalu menjawab perlahan, “Sesungguhnya, aku memang sedang marah kepadanya.”
“Mengapa?” tanya Rasul pula.
“Aku marah kepada Al Qamah, karena ia melukai hatiku dengan lebih mengutamakan isterinya daripada aku,” jawab Bunda Al Qamah.
Mengertilah kini Rasulullah persoalan Al Qamah. Rupanya, ia lebih mementingkan menyenangkan dan menuruti kehendak istrinya daripada berbakti kepada ibunya yang tua, lumpuh dan sesungguhnya membutuhkan dirinya pula. Kemarahan sang ibu rupanya telah memunculkan kemarahan Allah kepada Al Qamah, sehingga ia mengalami kesulitan di saat mengalami sakaratul maut. Maka Rasulullah pun berupaya mencairkan hati bunda Al Qamah agar bisa memaafkan dan merelakan anaknya.
“Carilah oleh kalian kayu bakar yang cukup banyak,” perintah Rasul pada Ammar dan Bilal pula.
Bunda Al Qamah terkejut. “Untuk apa kayu bakar itu wahai Rasul?”
“Untuk membakar jasad Al Qamah di dunia ini, sebelum ia kelak dibakar api di akhirat,” jawab Rasul.
“Ya Allah, Ya Rasulullah, apakah engkau akan membakar anakku ini?” suara Bunda Al Qamah begitu cemasnya.
“Hanya itulah yang dapat dilakukan untuk membantu mewafatkan Al Qamah, kecuali engkau mau memaafkan dan meridhoi Al Qamah.”
Mendengar jawaban itu, seketika menitiklah airmata sang ibu. Dan dengan suara pilu ia berkata, “Wahai Allah yang berada di langit, wahai Rasulullah, wahai sekalian umat manusia, persaksikanlah, sesungguhnya aku telah memaafkan kesalahan Al Qamah dan merelakan dirinya.”
Begitu bunda Al Qamah usai menyebutkan persaksiannya, para hadirin melihat bahwa jasad Al Qamah kini menjadi tenang dan bibirnya dengan mudah dapat mengucapkan kalimat sebelum nafasnya berhenti saat ajalnya datang.
Para sahabat yang melihat pun semakin memahami betapa pentingnya menjaga hubungan bakti kepada kedua orangtua terutama kepada ibu. Karena, keridhoan orangtua akan membawa kita kepada keridhoan Allah dan sebaliknya, kemarahan orangtua pun akan membawa kemarahan Allah.
Dan sungguh, setiap muslim pun perlu mengambil pelajaran dari kisah Al Qamah ini, sebagaimana para sahabat melakukannya.

Ditulis oleh : Zirlyfera Jamil, Majalah Ummi, No. 9/XVII Januari 2006/1426 H

p/s: i'll be going back mak.very soon:).now everyone can fly.yup every 2 months.wooho.maybe i should looking 4 mr pilot. bukan pen pilot itu.

rumors.scandalous.gossip girl.

2009-05-27T05:03:00.000-07:00

Gossip Girl: Spotted, Lonely Girl and N on the Upper East Side, learning the lesson that nothing stays missing for long.

N: do you know F?

LG : F?

N: Oh LG, she's the one wearing hideous tight outfits.

LG: T-I-G-H-T?

N: astaghfirullahalazim. Oh God, forgive me.

Love may fade with the season, but some friendships are year round. Like you and me! You know you love me. XOXO, Gossip Girl.

don't be sad

2009-05-25T03:33:00.000-07:00

dear diary,

i'm feeling that i lose myself since few days ago. i felt the emptiness. i cant define it. it's like when you're at the side of road. u do not have a clue which path u wanna take. u just stare blankly the cars passing by . then you heard a car honk 4 u. then u realise, 'i need to keep going..........' . i really hope that i can know what's this thing. what's up with this emptiness? with this sadness? with this loneliness? when the birds singing love song in unison. when the skies are bright in blue. when leaves falling onto the ground. i should not be sad. i should not.

And that it is He (Allah) Who makes (whom He wills) laugh, and makes (whom He wills) weep.

( An- Najm: 43)

p/s: laugh over the fb quizzes. no wonder. crying while watching Geng Pengembaraan. no wonder.

lost and found

2009-05-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

there was solat hajat held at Malaysia Hall today. followed by a talk given by Ustaz Nushi which is anticipated one. my friends told me how good he is as the speaker.seriously rumor has it :)
the thing that captivated me :

something will be more meaningful when we're searching for it.
ustaz nushi

that's hit my semi-functional mind. blame the exams :(

back to the story,
that's so true. why do parents even bothered to inform the reception counter if their child went missing? cos they are precious. they are valuable for the parents.
it's the same thing applied when we're rummaging our closet searching for our favourite anak tudung. walhal banyak je yang lain. cos that anak tudung is distinctive. it is special.maybe lubang di tengah emphasises on pengudaraan yang baik.

let us begin our journey in searching of something. we'll never know what's actually world has to offer until we explore it. we'll get there someday.we'll find the missing bits somewhere.

p/s: if you see my prince out there, do inform me:)
mak jangan risau, hanya gurauan semata.

teardrops on my guitar

2009-05-22T07:52:00.000-07:00

thank You for reminding me bout his love to us. thank You for consoling me that You will always love us. thank You for telling me bout this love story.

p/s: no tears shed for quite a while. at least tonight some microbes will be killed (tears contain chemicals act as defense mechanism:))

fusion

2009-05-22T05:18:00.000-07:00

inspiration.inspiration. so many things running through my mind. but i can't find the right words to manifest them. motivation.motivation. feeling weak yet there's miles to go.

p/s: .help me please.

what time is it?

2009-05-18T23:05:00.000-07:00

4.05 pm

Baillieu library

ground floor

i can't help myself from peeping next person's screen (busybody okay)

she's korean i can tell.i heard she's chatted with her friend. i guess she's contemplating whether to buy the prada handphone or not.

no i'm not understand korean language.

i 'accidentally' saw she browsed through Ebay page.

this is what happens when you got plenty of time, but do not utilise them wisely.
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bismillahhirrahmanirrahim.

1. By Al-'Asr (the time).

2. Verily! Man is in loss,

3. Except those who believe (in Islamic Monotheism) and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth (i.e. order one another to perform all kinds of good deeds (Al-Ma'ruf)which Allah has ordained, and abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds (Al-Munkar)which Allah has forbidden), and recommend one another to patience (for the sufferings, harms, and injuries which one may encounter in Allah's Cause during preaching His religion of Islamic Monotheism or Jihad, etc.).

surah al asr.

it takes two to tango

2009-05-18T03:11:00.000-07:00

i switched off my computer before my brand new printer done the printing job. i forgot that computer needs to be turned on in order to print notes. it takes two to tango after all.printer needs computer.and computer needs printer. so sweet:) even gadget needs each other.
communicating seems as essential for me.someone told me tis:) i can't live without talking to the people around me. people close to me. so please bear with my friendliness degree. let me be your chatterbox. cause i need you to listen to me. u need me to do the talking. simple. do entertain me with your jokes. and let me do the laughing.

p/s: it takes two tango. PLEASE read your microb notes waheeda. u need it for exam.and it needs u to be real reading material.

i'm NOT missing you

2009-05-16T03:17:00.000-07:00

I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus:]
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

[Chorus]

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
(I'm not missing you)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
(I got life to do)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
(I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh see the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not missing
I'm not missing you(yeah, oooh)
I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you

becoming thoughtful dresser

2009-05-16T03:01:00.000-07:00

i got 639.50 aud 4 my bond return. let us see how i'm spending them:)

1. purchase ticket (kl to perth)- aud 150
2. purchase ticket (melbourne to hobart, tassie) - aud 134.30 (return ticket)

i pride myself for this. i still have approximately 300 +. save it 4 rainy days:)
in a way, i'm more becoming thoughtful dresser. do not buy expensive clothes unless it's necessary.if you still don't have your winter coat, please get one.or else u'l be frozen .like the scene in edward scissorhand.
above aud 15 is expensive range for me. for now. being thoughtful spender shapes thoughtful dresser.

someday we'll know

2009-05-15T04:15:00.000-07:00

bismillahhirrahmanirrahim..............

'O Man! undoubtedly, you are to run, necessarily towards your Lord, then you are to meet Him.

( al- insyiqaq ayat 6)

dear Allah,
help us to keep on running. keep on running even we're slow runner.even we have to brave the storm. until we find You.Ameen