pilihlah aku jadi pacarmu

i used to think that MCQ is way more easier than any other question types (short answer, essay etc). cos they are options given. we only have to make a guess which one is the right option aka the appropriate answer. but that's not the case. even there are possible answers, we still have to choose one answer.circle only one answer. the options given are tricky ones. they seems right but they are not. that's so my 1st week in sem 4. i learned a lot when it comes to making decision. there are plenty choices, but you only need the definite one to decide. u wanna wear red socks or yellow socks? u make the choice. i'm changing my subjects over and over again. i do not want to be regret.that's why i keep changing them.i do feel that i've chosen the best subjects for me. now, i rest my case.pray to Him that i'll be alright. pray to Him that i'll be fine.most importantly pray to Him that i never leave Him.even the subjects are so whatever.never leave Him even i'm doing well.

p/s: feeling more like grown-up.

milik siapakah jejaka ini

my bf looks like shah rukh khan. with dark hair and dark skin.


he's not mine. let me clear things up. he's someone bf. natasha. girl sat next to me during flight back to Melbourne. what a household name. even young girl from oz knows him. that's not my point.
people always wanna make comparisons. comparisons to justify ourselves.totally my humble opinion.




p/s: favorite quote of the day: Islam will never leave you. Never.

full stop

it has been about 5 years. 5 years that i paid the last respect to the deceased. i mean attending sort of memoir. managing the funeral process sort of. i had experience one when my last uncle died nearly 5 years ago. that was the very 1st time i loss someone who is really close and part of me. i learn how it feels losing someone that is matter to you. how's heartwrenching is that. i learn what our days will be without him.


***********************present********************
we received a call from mum while having breakfast at kopitiam. Tok Nor has been confirmed his death by the hospital.Innalillahhirrajiu'n. he's cousin of my grandma.considered as our atok. when we arrived there his family pay their last respect. his children kissed his forehead for very last time. the tears welled in their eyes. then they performed solat jenazah before brought the coffin to nearby mosque. it's different feeling from 5 years ago.

life must come to an end.
if it's not today, it will be someday.
just have a go whatever we wanna do.
just have a courage to tell whatever we wanna tell.
before life ends. like how full stop ends a sentence.

p/s: death is worthwhile reminder for those alive.

geum jan di

pernahkah kau merasa
jiwamu kosong


pernah. frankly, i really hate that feeling. aimless, weaknesses strike my soul. sedangkan banyak yang menanti di luar sana. i wanna be miss sunshine. miss optimistic. aja aja fighting>>>

hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller

we learn a lot from our real life. things that make us happy or things that upset us. most of them are beyond our control. we can plan to be a happy people. yes we can. but it can turn out to vice versa due to unforeseen circumstances. that's what i mean. hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller. that we have full control over it. life is ain't easy as sitting on the couch and tuning into astro channels. tuning into another channels when we get sick of watching particular tv channel. instead we need to move on in life.there's no such thing as rewind. hidup ini juga bukan seperti dvd player. you can't twist the past but you can fix them in present or in the future.



Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim
Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir"

risks when it is risky

people choose to be risk taker when there's great extent of uncertainties. it's better make a risk move than doing nothing. like a guy tried his luck to propose someone to be his wife. there's a 1:1 risk.whether being accepted or rejected. it's better than just sit back in hope for getting hitched someday. however one should be prepared to bear the consequences, the risks for being risk taker. keep an open mind and open heart. do not stressed out if unexpected outcomes are encountered. after all, being risk taker the one that u chose. if not just play safe buddy.


p/s: my advice: do not ever tempted to take a risk when it comes to Iman and Islam. going clubbing in the name of being risk taker? there's no room for being risk taker whatsoever. naudzubillah. cos life itself is already risky. we never know if we can be best of muslim in the future. instead go crabbing. yummylicious. i used to think clubbing is like actively participate in clubs such as stamp collecting, kelab pengakap etc.haha.

secret admirer: die baik tak weh?
informer: BAIK. dye tak clubbing.

the secret admirer burst out into laugh. forgive her. that's the first thing that amused her in a day long. baik and amusing itu subjective :)

BRAND NEW DAY
HOPEFULLY BRAND NEW ME TOO