Monday, October 26, 2009

non recyclable.

sneak peek of my exam:

16/11: pharmaco

17/11: drugs that shape society

19/11: techniques in molecular science

20/11: biotechnology

25/11- 24/2/2010: summer break

i know.3 months break is like ages? aren't they? i should start planning for my summer break.literally after exam revision i suppose. bear in mind Waheeda, time can't be recycled. once you let it go, it won't come back. who knows tis might be the last long break.even maternity leave won't be as long as this.unless u married to your boss.

Monday, October 19, 2009

and the reason is U

consecutively heart breaking posts make me sick.hehe.i know it makes my wonderful readers sick too:) enough of melancholic chapter.let's move on. i bumped into my friend that is 8 months heavily pregnant. she's blooming i can tell you.she's so happy. i can see that.and i'm happy for her too. she told me how nervous she is as she'll be due in 4 weeks time. and there i am cheering her up.that's only can i do. urm speaking of angel, i just found out that my ex classmate just get hitched:) she's officially Mrs now. and the lucky man none other than that someone i know. i'm totally startled as i never expect that she's going to get married at this age. again, i'm happy for her. i'll make sure that we'll be the wedding crashers. no i'm not going to.i'll be his best man.NO. i'll be her guest:)
being here at tis moment really change my perspective. i used to think that marriage is typical. i mean that everyone has to get married.cos that's the way it reasons and no doubt for marriage. but now i learn that there must be valid reasons for getting married.i respect those reasons.

i met one bangladeshi woman in prayer room.she was with her son.

Are you married?

her question breaking the silence. yet breaking my heart too.haha.

No. I am not. I'm 21 but lots mistaken me as 27-28 years old.

i've tried my best to justify her question.

hopefully there's wife material qualities in me instead of looking old.
wait who says mama can't look hot and young? my mom is one of the hot mamas:)


p/s: that explains a lot bout my absurd results all tis while. at least it's still before the test.

Friday, October 16, 2009

words speak louder than action?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since he brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a guy like that?

it's fair and square

Lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik,
Lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat.

That's rule of thumb. so i can't do anything if u wanna be a jerk. but hopefully u'll find light along the way. it's genuine me. and to all wonderful and amazing persons out there, never stop being yourself.cause you'll find there will be a happy me.have faith in Him.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

u'll be tested

there's not always smooth-sailing in life. we might achieve whatever we dream of but at the same time we might lose something. there are lot of things on my plate lately. stuffs involve with emotional attachment sort of thing. i learn a people being selfish yet still being able to justify their actions. how people easily lost in worldly desires; wealth, beauty, power and status.just name it.worldly desires will never find an ending. we engaging too much in adornment and straying away from the truth.

Dear Allah, make me strong enough to brave the storms. make my beloved ones strong enough too. draw us near You.

quotes from movie called 'Waitress'

are you happy?

i'm happy enough.

the keyword is enough.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

don't speak

i always have tis big sigh when day approaching night lately. it's because there's still heaps of things to be done but the day has come to an end.then i think would it be great if u don't have to sleep at night. then i came across one ayat from surah Ibrahim after performing Ishaa:

And He hath made subject to you the sun and the moon, both diligently pursuing their courses; and the night and the day hath he (also) made subject to you.

( 14:33)

I shouldn't be complaining bout the nature.He got me.In good way absolutely.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

hati kering

i dont wanna be someone that is heartless.please.
i hate for being one.
Dear Allah, make me the one who can feel their own heart.

p/s: hormonal influence is superb. it's His after fact everything under the sun is all His. do not being not so smart by not asking from Him. I pray that i'm all controlled during lab session tomorrow. and for the prince charming too.i mean later.