Sunday, December 27, 2009

aku bukanlah superman

aku bukanlah superman, aku juga bisa nangis

i was at level 3 of TSC (Tampin shopping centre yo!). i was waiting for my sis paying for double a batteries. the stationery set catched my glimpse. the kids must be over the moon while getting the brand new school items.i've been there :p i browsing the school related stuffs, killing time. the 'upin ipin' drawing block caught my attention. upin and ipin are cute, i admit. but there was weird urge of sketching struck me. i'm holding the drawing block and had a monologue:

' i should try sketching'

i'm not good at all in art. better trust me. there sometimes in life, we wanna try to do something different. they might be typical, whilst alien to ourselves. human have desire, that's my theory. make a wish to Allah, even though it seems unreachable. it might you, not for Him.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

5 cents worth sincerity

"Apabila matinya anak Adam, maka putuslah segala amalannya, kecuali 3 perkara iaitu sedekah jariah, ilmu yang memberi manfaat dan anak soleh yang mendoakannya"


A) AKAUN CIMB: 0506-0000034-10-0 (SURAU NURHIDAYAH)



if pakcik (ajk surau) have their own FB or tweeter, it will be blast! it's not reason for extramarital affairs whatsoever! but for promoting and advertising beneficial activities.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

it's your 1st Birhday, Darl.

i'm not gonna write you a love song cause you asked for it
cause you need one, you see.

it has been like almost 1 year i've been blogging.frankly speaking, it all started with the blog reading. i enjoy reading others' thoughts and reflection. for me, it is the reflection of wisdom.and to be honest i'm not that good in writing.hehe. but this one thing i am consistently have passion in it.indeed there sometimes i slipped away.not updating my baby blog for about 2 weeks! at the very beginning, i was finding what my signature writing would be. what should i write about. furthermore, how exposed can i be? to what extent i can unveil my thougts. cos blogging is form of self expression. when you express yourself, there's tendency of your privacy being violated.(bajet semua orang baca blog lak!haha). i'm also concern bout who might be my lucky readers* grin*. i'm so anxious if my close ones read my blog.haha. there's adrenaline rush. i prefer being secret writer.then who i address my blog to? so that's why my roomie attempt to put my blog link in YM. but slowly i learn to be open bout it.everyone is more than welcomed to read my humble princess diaries. i really hope you gain something from it.the good ones of course!everyone has their own melody, come on write your song babeh!

p/s: honesty can reach heart.hope i could reach yours:)

chapter 2: embark on motherhood

3rd week of my summer love

we went to the Zoo Melaka.three of, adik and little Danish.obviously the zoo treat is none other for him! don't worry i'm not gonna to blabbing bout zoo experience. but i am so touched by the fact that there are parents taking an off-day to spend quality time at zoo:0 making their kids leap happily. danish didn't have a complain at all. he was like really into the visit. when are we going to see elephant? when are we going to see tiger? haha.making the aunts sweats off did'nt i just mentioned that i'm not gonna blabbing on zoo experience? pardon me.we headed to Melaka Mall afterwards. for the sake of converting ringgit into rupiah.Aku akan jadi jutawan pantas!haha.
while waiting for the person in-charge of money changer, i bumped into my ex-classmate.we haven't seen each other for about 9 years.phew. she was like in disbelief when seeing me.
i put on weight. that could be the most reliable theory.

'ni anak kau ke? she was referring to Danish.
i gave her finger. not the middle to it. meaning still no ring stuck on my finger.

before we bid goodbye, she murmured: kawen jemput aku.

of course! i will.not only you.but all of our ex-classmates:p insyaAllah.


It is not permitted to the Sun to catch up the Moon, nor can the Night outstrip the Day: Each (just) swims along in (its own) orbit (according to Law).

(36: 40)

everything goes in meet someone right for know the rest of story:)

p/s: sunnatullah.that's the key.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

chapter 1: model scout

1st week of my summer love:

thursday is pasar tani day. my grandma would be the happiest in my house. as my sister always mentioned: going to pasar tani is like going for shopping spree. woman and shopping can't be separated after all:p. my sis would be the driver of the day. to put it more nicely, my granny's companion for going to the market. that's why she's an expert of the fish.just name it, she knows all existed species of fish!haha. for the sake of 'fish' reason, i was forced to go to the market today.

'kakak ikutlah nenek ke pasar, kenal sikit ikan' uttered my mom. that sounds pretty educational.i'm buying with the idea.

the three of us hit the pasar tani. then we stopped by at tis stall,selling seafoods. i was like kids learning their ABC's. i can tell you now how to differentiate tenggiri and ikan parang. ehem. out of no where, there was a guy approaching us.

unknown: assalamualaikum. maaf mengganggu. saya lihat cik ni ada potensi untuk.....

gasp. potential to be a model? i always read the stories behind the successful supermodels. they normally been scouted by the modelling agent.


unknown: potensi untuk berjaya.

he reached out for his business card. honestly, i keep it.who knows i might need the job in future.hehe.

what intrigued me the most is that the capability of seeing potential. please ignore the the model part.i always in the laidback mode which is sometimes unnecessary. i shouldn't just sit back when i potentially can shine. shining brightly.

reach your dreams.may you become the brightest you can be. at the utmost you can be.

p/s: i went to the workshop for servicing my sis's viva. amazed by how dedicated the mechanics are.FYI, i'm not checking them out or whatsoever.heh.

Monday, November 30, 2009

cinta memungkinkan segala

i kinda agree with tis.

p/s: ku percaya ada cinta by siti nurhaliza

Friday, November 27, 2009

what makes a song is a song

2 years consecutively celebrating eid adha at Tampin, call me lucky please.

friend: are you a family type?

it's up to your definition of 'family type'. it has broad spectrum of beauty lies in the eyes of beholder. you might define beauty with pointed nose, fair skin or being is relative and subjective.

please appreciate what we have today. it's the key to happiness. i'm still learning bout it ain't easy. ungrateful and hard to be pleased are common occurrence. complaining and jealousy are human nature. despite those, it is possible.

pakngah: kakak, sejak akhir-akhir ni,

monologue: i gain's obvious i know.

pakngah: kakak makin kurus.

auw, that makes you my favorite pakcik, pakngah. haha.

p/s: just realize that my nenek never fails to make us burst into laughter. her jokes i mean.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

hot and cold

it was scorching in Melbourne since last week. it was like really hot. u'll get sweating even while having your meal. unlike jogging during winter. heh. and luckily it's exam means that i don't have to be outside. i make myself grounded for this pass few days. the scorching days are so unusual when comparing to the last November. there must be tweets or FB status related to this 'hotness'. but this is not the case during winter. it was freezing cold, no doubt. i do not restrained myself from going out that time. it's not a big deal.cause somehow i'm feeling the coldness won't hurt me as much as the scorching days. it feels like i'm gonna be okay. i can survive the coldness if i'm putting more gpieces of clothes. how to survive scorching days? whatever it is, hopefully we dress according to what we are.

girl: OMG.our boys might having difficulties in lowering their gaze during this summer. this summer is hot.but the girls getting hotter.

then 2 topless guys passing by. girls gotta lower their gaze too:p

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

all about SWOT vac

1. this is officially the 1st week of SWOT VAC for tis sem
2. at 4th sem that i only know what's SWOT VAC stands's study without teaching's flattering is that. i used to think tis acronym stands for Strength, Weaknesses, Opportunity and Threat. 1 week wouldn't be enough for that.
3. i would love if the SWOT VAC being extended for 2 weeks
4. there is high susceptibility of weight gain. been starving all the time.6x meals a must.owh, missing those times at MRSM. Dewan Selera to be exact.
5. just realize the fact that it's the first time of proper revision in the sem.for most of the subjects.
6.been grateful that 'give up' never cross her mind.
7. wanna wish my readers best of luck for the coming's not bout what's waiting on the other side, it's the climb:)


1.Proclaim! (or read!) in the name of thy Lord and Cherisher, Who created-

2. Created man, out of a (mere) clot of congealed blood:

3. Proclaim! And thy Lord is Most Bountiful,-

4. He Who taught (the use of) the pen,-

5. Taught man that which he knew not. (al-'Alaq, 1-5)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

is she Blair?

kakak, i always wanna update my blog..but it seems i failed to do so.

not updating blog for 1 week gives her headache. of course not. but it's one of the concerns lately.
hik. i always have tis urge to update the blog but ended up with blank stare at blank pages. i couldn't think the best words to write on my blog. enough for the whining. btw, speaking of updates, my house mates and i have tis new rule. i should put it as culture instead.we gotta to speak English when having our meals together.haha. it's funny yet so cute in a way. it's not just about ' can i have the petai?' basis questions. we tried to go deeper in our conversation. those girlish stuffs etc. like does pink lip gloss match with yellow outfit? i'm bluffing. where's the honesty waheeda? haha. i really enjoying the chaos when we burst into laughter. haha . i couldn't say more. have a meal with us and you know what i mean. yup, bring your lunch box too. not the empty one.

p/s: i used to have tis 'bla' feeling when i heard someone speaking in English (for Malays obviously. i can't blame Justin Timberlake) . but know i have tis 'blair' feeling. it means awesomeness. u can speak 2 languages fluently. who knows maybe the 3rd one could be arabic.
' ana waheeda'. 'ana talibah'. ' ana jamilah' (giggle). alert: they are not 3 ana siblings or whatsoever. ana means 'i am'. waheeda is my name.talibah means a female student. jamilah is.... ask your ustaz instead. you wouldn't trust me if i'm saying i am pretty.haha.

Monday, October 26, 2009

non recyclable.

sneak peek of my exam:

16/11: pharmaco

17/11: drugs that shape society

19/11: techniques in molecular science

20/11: biotechnology

25/11- 24/2/2010: summer break

i know.3 months break is like ages? aren't they? i should start planning for my summer break.literally after exam revision i suppose. bear in mind Waheeda, time can't be recycled. once you let it go, it won't come back. who knows tis might be the last long break.even maternity leave won't be as long as this.unless u married to your boss.

Monday, October 19, 2009

and the reason is U

consecutively heart breaking posts make me sick.hehe.i know it makes my wonderful readers sick too:) enough of melancholic chapter.let's move on. i bumped into my friend that is 8 months heavily pregnant. she's blooming i can tell you.she's so happy. i can see that.and i'm happy for her too. she told me how nervous she is as she'll be due in 4 weeks time. and there i am cheering her up.that's only can i do. urm speaking of angel, i just found out that my ex classmate just get hitched:) she's officially Mrs now. and the lucky man none other than that someone i know. i'm totally startled as i never expect that she's going to get married at this age. again, i'm happy for her. i'll make sure that we'll be the wedding crashers. no i'm not going to.i'll be his best man.NO. i'll be her guest:)
being here at tis moment really change my perspective. i used to think that marriage is typical. i mean that everyone has to get married.cos that's the way it reasons and no doubt for marriage. but now i learn that there must be valid reasons for getting married.i respect those reasons.

i met one bangladeshi woman in prayer room.she was with her son.

Are you married?

her question breaking the silence. yet breaking my heart too.haha.

No. I am not. I'm 21 but lots mistaken me as 27-28 years old.

i've tried my best to justify her question.

hopefully there's wife material qualities in me instead of looking old.
wait who says mama can't look hot and young? my mom is one of the hot mamas:)


p/s: that explains a lot bout my absurd results all tis while. at least it's still before the test.

Friday, October 16, 2009

words speak louder than action?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since he brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a guy like that?

it's fair and square

Lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik,
Lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan yang jahat.

That's rule of thumb. so i can't do anything if u wanna be a jerk. but hopefully u'll find light along the way. it's genuine me. and to all wonderful and amazing persons out there, never stop being yourself.cause you'll find there will be a happy me.have faith in Him.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

u'll be tested

there's not always smooth-sailing in life. we might achieve whatever we dream of but at the same time we might lose something. there are lot of things on my plate lately. stuffs involve with emotional attachment sort of thing. i learn a people being selfish yet still being able to justify their actions. how people easily lost in worldly desires; wealth, beauty, power and status.just name it.worldly desires will never find an ending. we engaging too much in adornment and straying away from the truth.

Dear Allah, make me strong enough to brave the storms. make my beloved ones strong enough too. draw us near You.

quotes from movie called 'Waitress'

are you happy?

i'm happy enough.

the keyword is enough.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

don't speak

i always have tis big sigh when day approaching night lately. it's because there's still heaps of things to be done but the day has come to an end.then i think would it be great if u don't have to sleep at night. then i came across one ayat from surah Ibrahim after performing Ishaa:

And He hath made subject to you the sun and the moon, both diligently pursuing their courses; and the night and the day hath he (also) made subject to you.

( 14:33)

I shouldn't be complaining bout the nature.He got me.In good way absolutely.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

hati kering

i dont wanna be someone that is heartless.please.
i hate for being one.
Dear Allah, make me the one who can feel their own heart.

p/s: hormonal influence is superb. it's His after fact everything under the sun is all His. do not being not so smart by not asking from Him. I pray that i'm all controlled during lab session tomorrow. and for the prince charming too.i mean later.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

aku muzik dan kamu

Pemain Cinta - Ada Band

Tak habis pikir ku jadinya
Kau bisa membuatku cinta padamu
Meskipun tlah berulang kali
Kau begitu asyik mendua
Sudah cukup saja, sikapi kegilaanmu
Sebelum sukmaku, kau cabik dan perih

Reff :
Wahai dirimu pemain cinta
Penikmat nafsu dunia
Walau dirimu begitu indah
Maaf kau tak pantas bagiku
Direlung kalbu yang terdalam
Getaran asmara masih tersisa
Memang dalam bermain cinta
Kadang kau terlihat sempurna
Eloknya parasmu rabunkan mata batinku
Ku harus berpaling meski kau memohon

Bridge :
Apa yang kau dambakan
Dalam duniamu yang sungguh palsu
Terpikirkah olehmu
Untuk dapatkan cinta yang sejati

Saturday, September 26, 2009

i'm so over you

letting go and get over with something are hard to do. i'm always thinking that i'm good in those things. unfortunately, i am not. i have tendency to forget bout things instead of getting over them.i mean all bitter things here. things that you wish being vanished.
then i remembered one instance when i was 14 i guess.we're out to play bowling. it was family outing. i was unsuccessful in attempt to knock down even a single pin.i ended up crying.seriously.that was so pathetic.i became reluctant to try again. there were great supporters of mine yet i was still in doubt. after the game, we dropped by a souvenir shop nearby. surprisingly, my mum bought me's a fridge magnet. written on it: ' when faced with a challenge, look for a way, not a way out'. i think it shouldn't be stick on the fridge.instead stick on my mind.

p/s: i'm online even it's already asar. then there's a hadeeth on tv 3 saying bout people who procrastinating their solat. that's a worthy reminder. dear Allah, u're so Merciful. i better get going now.

Friday, September 25, 2009

i dont wanna miss a thing

laughing and reminiscing all day.we even got our duit raya.btw, we're primary school buddy. 12 years of friendship:) home is home after all.

i am so grateful for being right here at tis moment. celebrating raya at hometown is such perfection.i need to admit. being able to see faces of your loved ones.that feeling is beyond description.families, friends or even strangers, they all here.

i'll be missing takbir tampin's version. i grew up listening to tis version.hehe. maybe celebrating raya at Melbourne next year will be a blast? i do have curiosity about the feeling of rayaing at oversea.that's so metaphor. hopefully i'm not crying like a baby on the 1st raya.wish me luck peeps:p

Tuesday, September 22, 2009


i bumped into Natasha Hudson. she was in the same flight ( Kota Bharu to KLIA). and of course i'm on economy class.
she wore no make up, she still look good though.she's super slim.
what a small world
and now i'm googling bout her. she's writing on blog too. she has quite impressive and reflective thought. i'm amazed.

p/s: trying not to judge roses by their smells,

Friday, September 18, 2009

of sambal tempoyak

having sambal tempoyak, sambal ikan sembilang, masak lemak, sushi king 4 breaking fast

btw, i'm home:)

Monday, September 14, 2009

with love :)

2009 Ramadhan nearly to the end. it's less than a week. how time flies. there were countless iftar invitations and countable times that i really cooked for meal. thanks for all the free iftars;0
what i like bout tis Ramadhan is being able to catch up with my dearies. even it's just sharing a plate of food, it feels we're getting closer someway. unless u're finishing the food, i don't think it works out.haha. lab classes are one of the prominent event. redo the experiments during tis Holy month is all bout patience. being patience even though u screwed up and letting yourself down. every cloud has a silver lining, Waheeda. that what makes my Ramadhan even more special. opportunity for learning life lessons.thank You for that.for everything, the fact that i'll be going back home for Raya..that's perfected my Ramadhan experience. what else can i wish for:)

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Merciful,
O you who believe! Fasting is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those before you, that you may acquire Taqwa. (al Baqarah: 183)

Abu Dhar Jundub bin Junadah and Abu Abdul Rahman Mu’adh bin Jabal, radiyallahu anhuma, reported that the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, said:

“Fear Allah wherever you may be; follow up an evil deed with a good one which will wipe (the former) out, and behave good-naturedly towards people.”

[Al-Tirmidhi relates it, saying: It is a good (hasan) Tradition. In some copies he says: It is a good and genuine (hasan and sahih) Hadith.]

Ramadhan, hope to see ya next year. perhaps with heart melting love story.


Thursday, September 10, 2009

vote for me

being qualified to vote is significant event once u reached 21 years old. if i were asked back years ago about what it's all bout being 21? 'i can cast my vote during election' definitely would be my answer. there's election thingy going on at uni tis week. candidates from student council basically chasing out each of students. they are everywhere.except in the toilet. they will talk to you on and on so that u'l vote for them.i never being stopped by any of the candidates. not until today. i was rush to the wilson hall.yes peeps i'm gonna sit for my last mid sem test paper. then came a tall guy in red shirt.' hello miss' with very bright smile curved on his lips. he's running for education bureau position and he's from Stand Up party. metaphorically, we're barely to stand up as the wind blew hysterically. 'Dear Allah, do not let my hijab get blew or something'. 'if u want for better education, please vote for us' reminding me.

'Hi'.There u go.i'm lucky. my test would be in about 5 minutes times. ' Do you support Palestine?' she asked me.'Yup'. She unfolded her story. she's representative from Y party.she told me that X party is pro- zionism and they rule for racism. they try to stop any activities related to palestine issue awareness. whereas that's what Y party work for.They conducted for Palestin awareness campaign almost for every semester.they aim for justice and human right.i'm not sure if the claim bout X is true.hopefully it's none other than truth. i was amazed by the fact that even student council want to go against the minority. the world is getting meaner. that's the ugly truth. i changed my mind.i wanna cast my vote for university election.i wanna vote for justice.

p/s: eligible voter for malaysia 's general election too.that would be harder.

Monday, September 7, 2009

u ask for it

Monday is not my favorite day to be honest. i woke up lazily realizing i have 10 am to 5 pm class.awesomeness.

i haven't finish my report writing too.coolness. so i need to stay at library in pursuit of diligence (mengarut saja). alhamdulillah i made it. that's why i heart you library. being in library can boost your concentration somehow. u'll be paying more attention to random people passing by.nope. i mean doing your academic related stuffs.

the prac class commenced at 2 pm. i've never thought it will be the unusual one. i messed up. seriously messed up whle doing the prac. i forgot to add reagents before incubating solutions. the results derived from experiment are not making sense. forcing me and my pair to stay for 30 minutes after class. i'm seriously do not have an idea on how on earth the demonstrator is so cool whenever we messed up.

we being asked to repeat one of the experiments.cos the result was bizarre. it's like alien.
i felt like crying. it's not about we're not having the good results. i felt exhausted but i need to keep going on. i reminded myself stop being pathetic. this is just one of the rejections.there lots to come in future.especially when you're in working field.

at the end of the class,

Lecturer: Girls, this is example of bad practical habits.
Make sure you do your prac carefully next time.

And i take it as lovely and fatherly concern.and not as warning cos i might be pissed off.

p/s: if you wanna live happily, have a happy life then. the autonomy is all yours. that's the lesson that i learn.

Friday, September 4, 2009

no .i'm not hit on you

He looks aimlessly. He seems incomplete. He seems worry on something.
That's what the girl thinks.

The girl catches a glimpse on his desk. Empty. She rummages her bag.Looking for something that can be offered.

Excuse me, do you have an eraser?


Take this.I do have extra one.

Fantastic.Thank you.

She doesn't has second thought for that. She really hopes that a guy will understand that she's trying to be nice. and not being flirtatious.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009


Some people argue that abstinence it's NOT the best solution. For example, abstinence from alcohol is believed to be futile attempt to minimize the harms of alcohol.i'm not saying that.but the journal said so (what's wrong type writer?). i do believe that abstinence works best in certain conditions. like prohibition from consuming alcohol, prohibition from committing adultery. it's to keep us away from the harmful effects. it's like prohibition from using lift when there's fire onset. emergency stairs need to be used in this situation. what i want to reiterate is that in certain times, we need to do things that we need to do.not what we want to do.

p/s: the abstinence from do shopping seems to work out. big claps for me:)

Monday, August 31, 2009


6 assignments and 4 mid sem tests. i dont wanna make it sounds like whining.more to reminder for myself. but i do have complaints.that's human nature.i already sat for the 1st test this was awesome (being positive is good enough for now). honestly, this semester really makes me feel like university student. it's not like i'm wearing uniform to uni's all about being comes all the philosophy ya. i wanna being a passionate learner.that's the ultimate goal. Passion. then in the midst of busyness, i started to realize that it's about 3 weeks before going back home:) it's more than enough to make my heart leaps.

So,verily with every difficulty, there is relief
Verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.

al-Insyirah, 6-7

p/s: keep going on peeps.there's always relief comes with's an immortal promise.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Mari Mengaji

Ramadhan and Noble Quran is strongly associated.Like Upin and Ipin.Even trillions much more stronger relationship. there is no BFF that can beat them.

"The month of Ramadan is the one in which the Quran was sent down, a guidance for mankind, clear proofs for the guidance, the Criterion; so whoever amongst you witnesses this month, let him fast it.


Further, Fatimah (may Allah be pleased with her) narrated from her father (may Allah bless him and grant him peace), who told her that Jibril would rehearse the Quran with him (in Ramadan) once every year, and he did so twice in the year of his death. (Bukhari 6/485)

After all, Noble Quran is His words. Primary source, it's not being quoted.That makes Quran magnificent.

p/s: selamat membaca:)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

orang putih ke?

english is my second language. what's an obvious statement here. i never imagined that i ended up doing my degree at the country which English is the native language. i do have problems when it comes to language barrier. i always opt to keep silent. very unwise one. being able to deliver my opinions in class is an achievement. the marks doesn't matter:p i already in my 4th sem of my degree. i only have 1 same class with my 'biotech buddy' ( hopefully you are reading tis miss nazihah). i thought i would be a loner (loner can rock the world too.if you are like peyton sawyer).
thanx God, i'm not a loner. i have few new friends that i met during class. they are mostly chineses.who cares. this enforces me to communicate in English. not just 'asking queries based communication' anymore. we do have academic conversation, girls conversation and daily basis conversation. it's so metaphor when being 21 make u realize that u should practicing English, which should be realized when you are 12. whatever it is, i'm glad cos it adds color to my life. at least in future, i do not exaggerate the anxiousness to speak in English.

p/s:i am malay drama lover.nur kasih to be exact.

Friday, August 21, 2009

it's RAMADHAN people

we're already in Ramadhan month:) a blessed month and yup a month before eid...yip hooray.
my stomach making weird sounds as if it's my first time's okay then it's the first day of Ramadhan.

Ramadhan alert:

- say no to purchase idle talk
- lower your gaze waheeda, i know that's hard. it's just like turning the volume down while listening to your favorite song ever.then it's achievable.
- do not overeating, overspending. all the OVERs are dont's.
- fully utilize your Ramadhan

wishing all of you the best and blast Ramadhan ever. Hope u'll find what you wish for in tis Ramadhan:)

p/s: kalau suka cakap suka.jangan ambil kesempatan ok.loud yet truthful.double wink.

Monday, August 17, 2009

tips rambut cantik

yay. trip with house mates to Mornington was a blast.yippie. we even had our very 1st horse
riding at some place. 38 aud for 50 minutes. that's pretty affordable if u're not converting to ringgit malaysia please. adrenaline rushed in my body.anxiety strikes me. have i done the right thing. or should i wait for 50 minutes instead of riding horse? i do not mind give a helping hand to feed the horses what ever. then something popped out:

And Who has created all the pairs and has appointed for you ships and cattle on which you ride, In order that you may mount firmly on their backs, and then may remember the Favour of your Lord when you mount thereon, and say: "Glory to Him who has subjected this to us, and we could never have it (by our efforts)."

Az-Zukhruf ( 12-13)

That is dua' for riding vehicles. it's applicable for horse riding too. i feel quite relieved. the horse would be nice to me.hopefully. i ended up as last person while getting our helmets ( i do realize that my head is exquisitely large..haha).

her: it's okay to wear hijab, but you need to let your hair wont fit your helmet.

me: grin.making cute faces.

her: i used to wear hijab before.

me: making jokes. no i am not. ( it HIJAB? or hedge? or hijb?)

her honesty slammed my subconsciousness. i just wanna fantasizing a fairytale story. a princess who loves to ride and loved by horses ...haha. then comes the prince checking me out if i'm okay. enough waheeda. u might throw up sausages u had for breakfast.

i appreciated her honesty.really appreciated it. she unfolded her story throughout 50 minutes riding. thanks to Sally, i ended up as last horse rider too.i maybe missed the story if i'm not the last person.Sally might be eavesdropping too.haish gossip folk sungguh. mentang mentang kuda yg girlie ( kuda betina sounds mean.heh). i'm more to listening rather than giving responses while she unfolded her story.i do wanna say something. but i couldn't. deep down inside i hope she'll find the light. i wanna tell her and the whole world that :Allah is most compassionate.

p/s: .yearning for beach horse riding.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

when i grow up

When i grow up,

i wanna be anything that i could think of. i wanna be tv presenter, i wanna be teacher, i wanna be model, i wanna be businesswoman.the list goes on and on.

When i grow up,

i wanna marry my prince charming. i wanna have happy ending fairytale story. i wanna have big family.

Now, i want to grow up to be sincere person in everything i do. i want to grow up to be as happy as i can. i want to grow up appreciating those around me. i want to grow up understanding myself better. i want to grow up becoming a good woman.

Monday, August 10, 2009


today is Monday. i never know that most people hate Monday until i came here. that makes's the 1st day of week to kick off after spending the weekends leisurely. i'm only wishing Monday would be smooth- sailing day, a good day just like any other days. let me recap this week Monday's story. i met with 2 Chinese friends and a random Korean traveler. interesting. i met them in the same day. one of them is my ex- tute mate a year ago. one of them is my prac mate that i will be seeing for the next 12 weeks. and i'm not sure if i'll be seeing the third one in future.she's Korean traveler that asked me for direction. past,present and future:)
only the present that can be controlled. past remain in our memory. while future can only be planned and subjected to circumstances. i found one related saying:

Imam Ali RA. Ia melukiskan bahwa "saat" itu hanya ada tiga, iaitu (yang) berlalu dan tak dapat diharapkan lagi, maka jadikanlah ia sebagai pelajaran; (yang) kini pasti adanya, jadikanlah ia peluang; dan yang akan datang, tapi ingatlah, boleh jadi ia akan menjadi milik orang lain. Pegang yang pasti, jangan diperdaya oleh esok, dan jangan pula menghadirkan keresahan esok ke hari ini. Kerana, yang demikian itu hanya akan menambah beban diri. "Tahukah Anda bagaimana waktu mencuri usia manusia?" demikian seorang bijak bertanya dengan nada yang retorik. Ia menjawab, "Waktu mencurinya melalui hari esok yang melalaikannya tentang hari ini (dengan menunda), sampai usianya habis".

p/s: not so bad Monday:)

Saturday, August 8, 2009

busybody la

the new sem just started for about 2 weeks. but seriously it feels like 12 weeks. there's already assignments, homeworks etc. stop whining waheeda.PLEASE.

if u cant reach me on phone. if i don't reply ur sms. pardon me. if i'm not there when i suppose to.i'm sorry. i just get to know what's like being busy. i only used to be busybody. that kind of thing.that's my flaw.

Sekalian makhluk yang ada di langit dan di bumi sentiasa berhajat dan memohon kepadaNya. Tiap-tiap masa Ia di dalam urusan (mencipta dan mentadbirkan makhluk-makhlukNya)

(Ar Rahman: 29)

ask from Him indeed:) He never leave us even He's extremely busy.u always can reach Him.

p/s: favorite quote of the day: If u catch the sun, your shadow will follow you.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

over you

i always thought that i can get over things easily. that's not the case.
i saw the cat on my way to class. he's like Garfield. i couldn't stop myself from touching feels like ages that i haven't touch cat.

Bye bye Garfield. Tears welled in my eyes. He reminds me of someone. Someone that already gone. But life must move on. There are certain things that u cant get over them. cause they are part of you. if we get over them, how's the other part can move on? we will be incomplete.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

jangan ada benci

Do not judge people
because we might have no time to love them

Saturday, August 1, 2009

buat aku tersenyum

i was totally rejected the idea for cycling to university. i am so mesmerized by the fact that some juniors cycling to was nearly 30 minutes cycling i reckon. they look petite yet their physical strength not to be underestimated. furthermore, i never cycling on road. house's compound area, that's the only territory. i cannot imagining clumsy me on bicycle get honked by drivers. until one fine day, i got the chance to cycle.thanx 2 housemate. her old skool bicycle is irresistible. i was like the 4 years old girl got her 1st bike. they were several potential victims that day.they can tell that i'm not used to cycling. alhamdulillah, nobody gets injured.we arrived home safely that day. then 2nd time, i got the chance to cycle again. we're cycling around the park. the feeling is like when u're on merry goes around. serious talk. thus makes me contemplate to buy 2nd hand bike:)
still undecided..we will see. cycling can be listed as one of things that make me happy. how i wish every encounter can amuse you. can curve your smile. one more thing is that life is all about changes. maybe in future you'll like something that you dislike for years. we never know. just ask Him for the best. doesn't matter riding a bike or driving truck makes you happy. just ask Him. He always hear us. forever and always.

p/s: 'Kita memang tidak boleh menjadi orang lain,tapi kita boleh menjadi orang yang lebih baik'. enough said.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

pilihlah aku jadi pacarmu

i used to think that MCQ is way more easier than any other question types (short answer, essay etc). cos they are options given. we only have to make a guess which one is the right option aka the appropriate answer. but that's not the case. even there are possible answers, we still have to choose one only one answer. the options given are tricky ones. they seems right but they are not. that's so my 1st week in sem 4. i learned a lot when it comes to making decision. there are plenty choices, but you only need the definite one to decide. u wanna wear red socks or yellow socks? u make the choice. i'm changing my subjects over and over again. i do not want to be regret.that's why i keep changing them.i do feel that i've chosen the best subjects for me. now, i rest my case.pray to Him that i'll be alright. pray to Him that i'll be fine.most importantly pray to Him that i never leave Him.even the subjects are so whatever.never leave Him even i'm doing well.

p/s: feeling more like grown-up.

Friday, July 24, 2009

milik siapakah jejaka ini

my bf looks like shah rukh khan. with dark hair and dark skin.

he's not mine. let me clear things up. he's someone bf. natasha. girl sat next to me during flight back to Melbourne. what a household name. even young girl from oz knows him. that's not my point.
people always wanna make comparisons. comparisons to justify ourselves.totally my humble opinion.

p/s: favorite quote of the day: Islam will never leave you. Never.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

full stop

it has been about 5 years. 5 years that i paid the last respect to the deceased. i mean attending sort of memoir. managing the funeral process sort of. i had experience one when my last uncle died nearly 5 years ago. that was the very 1st time i loss someone who is really close and part of me. i learn how it feels losing someone that is matter to you. how's heartwrenching is that. i learn what our days will be without him.

we received a call from mum while having breakfast at kopitiam. Tok Nor has been confirmed his death by the hospital.Innalillahhirrajiu'n. he's cousin of my grandma.considered as our atok. when we arrived there his family pay their last respect. his children kissed his forehead for very last time. the tears welled in their eyes. then they performed solat jenazah before brought the coffin to nearby mosque. it's different feeling from 5 years ago.

life must come to an end.
if it's not today, it will be someday.
just have a go whatever we wanna do.
just have a courage to tell whatever we wanna tell.
before life ends. like how full stop ends a sentence.

p/s: death is worthwhile reminder for those alive.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

geum jan di

pernahkah kau merasa
jiwamu kosong

pernah. frankly, i really hate that feeling. aimless, weaknesses strike my soul. sedangkan banyak yang menanti di luar sana. i wanna be miss sunshine. miss optimistic. aja aja fighting>>>

Monday, July 13, 2009

hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller

we learn a lot from our real life. things that make us happy or things that upset us. most of them are beyond our control. we can plan to be a happy people. yes we can. but it can turn out to vice versa due to unforeseen circumstances. that's what i mean. hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller. that we have full control over it. life is ain't easy as sitting on the couch and tuning into astro channels. tuning into another channels when we get sick of watching particular tv channel. instead we need to move on in life.there's no such thing as rewind. hidup ini juga bukan seperti dvd player. you can't twist the past but you can fix them in present or in the future.

Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir"

Thursday, July 9, 2009

risks when it is risky

people choose to be risk taker when there's great extent of uncertainties. it's better make a risk move than doing nothing. like a guy tried his luck to propose someone to be his wife. there's a 1:1 risk.whether being accepted or rejected. it's better than just sit back in hope for getting hitched someday. however one should be prepared to bear the consequences, the risks for being risk taker. keep an open mind and open heart. do not stressed out if unexpected outcomes are encountered. after all, being risk taker the one that u chose. if not just play safe buddy.

p/s: my advice: do not ever tempted to take a risk when it comes to Iman and Islam. going clubbing in the name of being risk taker? there's no room for being risk taker whatsoever. naudzubillah. cos life itself is already risky. we never know if we can be best of muslim in the future. instead go crabbing. yummylicious. i used to think clubbing is like actively participate in clubs such as stamp collecting, kelab pengakap etc.haha.

secret admirer: die baik tak weh?
informer: BAIK. dye tak clubbing.

the secret admirer burst out into laugh. forgive her. that's the first thing that amused her in a day long. baik and amusing itu subjective :)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

teman tapi mesra

i would like to make confession here. exclusively in my princess diaries. i am with someone now. with Danish. i'm the lucky one. i can watch astro ceria freely. he doesn't care. i can watch free performances. malay songs, indo songs, even japan songs..just name it. ain't no other man like you Danish:) ain't no other. he insists to follow me to Melbourne.but i do not think it's a bright idea. there will be speculations man. just wait for me when i'm there. i will be back.

invitation to the truth

surgamu by Ungu.

Monday, July 6, 2009

ASL please

there's trend to chatting online long time ago. chatting randomly. the first question they would ask is asl. ASL? i used to think that acronym stands for asal. pardon me as i'm only 10 years old that time. actually it stands for age, sex and location.ROFL. aku mahu menulis tentang sesuatu. tentang ASL. asalku since i'm back home now. i'm proudly from Tampin. somewhere in Negeri Sembilan:)
unlike Rembau, Tampin is not really well known for their adat pepatih. seriously my friend hailed from Penang can answer better than me regarding these adat thingy. we're not really fully practicing adat pepatih. there's no MCD in Tampin. we only have 1 KFC, 1 Pizza Hut and recently Secret Recipe. thanx 2 us for contributing to KFC's revenues since many years ago. we're celebrating birthday at KFC. We have small gathering at KFC. Even bid farewell at KFC.KFC should feel indebted.haha. i do not care about how many fastfood outlets we have here. what Tampin is does matter to me. Tampin is like Texas to me. Tampin is my home. people that part of me are here.

p/s: i really want to upload pics in my princess diaries. slow internet connection do not allow me to do so. it's alrite Tampin.i still heart you.xoxo.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

sabarlah sayang

i've thought that i have become more patient lately. but i'm not.especially when it comes to talking. i wanna tell lots of things until i blurted them out inappropriately. it hurts people. and it hurts me too. i just cant control my emotion when saying those things. it makes me realize it has never been easy to be patient.

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Most Merciful,

And We shall try you until We test those among you who strive their utmost and persevere in patience; and We shall try your reported (mettle).

Surah Muhammad (47:31)

bear with my imperfection.

how do i look

i'm feeling fat now. i presume i gain kilos since few months ago. it's upset me. not that much. i still consume foods for pleasure.

Narrated AbĂ» Hurairah : Allah’s Messenger said, “Allah looks not at your figures, nor at your outward appearance but He looks at your hearts and deeds.”(Muslim)

that's ultimate beauty. no one can ever see. the beauty that is not subjected to explicit judgment.
the timeless beauty. the beautiful skin might be wrinkled one day. but the beautiful deeds are immortal. even we are no longer here, the good deeds continually benefit others.


misunderstanding can lead to many disastrous outcomes. if it's not that disastrous it might be unfavorable. as an example, the cake might not tasted as cake if the recipe is misunderstood. the 20 years of marriage will meet an end caused by just one misunderstanding. the child will left unattended when there's misunderstanding bout responsibility. being understood bout things that we need to do is very crucial. the understanding of something is like syllabus.
i wish that i could understand bout all things evolve around me. but that's pretty impossible. what's possible is to understand things that closest to us. first and foremost is to understand about ourselves. to understand about who we are. then u'll get to understand bout the related ones:)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

high heels vs terompah

my 1st shopping treat after exam was to IBC ( Islamic Book Centre) . i'm longing for long skirt since months ago.i do not care how do i look in skirts as far as i can scavenge skirts there (way too brutal> scavenger) . i went there and begun my scavenger hunt. few skirts chosen for fitting. as usual, u do not look good in all skirts. you should be lucky if u able to find one that fits u perfectly. i made my choice. then i'm browsing the book collection. there are lots of good stuffs. from how becoming a good daughter to a mithali wife..auwww. i end up picked up 5 books. what? i'm not even reading the whole newspaper articles. i torn between skirt and books. i rarely reading books but surely wearing tis skirt. the verdict is i'm choosing to buy books.i can get 5 books with the same price of a skirt.there u go,becoming wiser spender. hopefully i will read them during tis winter hols.and i'm sure there will be more skirts back home. much more cheaper i presume.

p/s: Harun Yahya. google him.quite brilliant author.

saat pencarian

a lot of things tangled in my mind
lots that i wanna tell
but i couldn't find how to tell them
go find yourself. u will find you in the searching.

p/s: smith st tomorrow is a must. in searching of pencil case.lalala.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009


i get to know about eskimo joe while in my flight to tassie recently. their brand new album entitled InshaAllah. it's kinda cute. if it's Hijjaz or Raihan's album, it'll be expected.

In an interview with Australian radio station Triple J, lead singer Kav Temperley revealed that the album title is an Arabic word.

It basically translates to 'what will be will be' but the literal translation is 'God willing'. It's a really beautiful Arabic word and it basically means a resignation to fate, like you're kind of letting the chips lie where they will. The people in the Arabic world use it all the time, they use it for like, 'who knows?

p/s: will Eskimo Joe learn more about Arabic language?
we will see. InsyaAllah.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

itu kamu

i rarely writing personal stuffs in my blog. especially about people around me and my beloved ones.




Tuesday, June 23, 2009

till we meet again uni:p

after 4 days, i'm finally out from my apartment. Thanx to a friend for making the initiative to discuss pass year papers. i couldn't stop smiling on my way to uni. i couldn't stop gazing passer by. i couldn't stop humming melody. lagu gembira, lagu cinta. it's totally different feeling. cant even be compared to having nasi three times a day. incomparable to the feeling of relaxing at home.
yay..finally i made it. studying in the library during exam week. there were dedicated staffs and very few students. lots of computers were available. i'm imagining myself downloading videos, movies etc. that's what i did during last sem. so noneducational things to be done at library huh. we're having quite serious discussion for like 2+ hours before decided to have our lunch.

me: where are we going to have lunch? ( buat2 tanya)

her: seriously up to you.

me: teller nak? the environment is conducive for revising.

her: nodding in agree/ or sign of being forced?

then, we chose notes to be revised while having our lunch.

her: notes about amino acid. there are 20 amino acids to be memorized. grin.

me: yup. notes about glycolysis too.

the food was good. but we're not tempted to just leave the notes aside.

her: tell me about lysine?

me: bla bla...serine?

her: bla..bla..

we're heading back approximately 3 pm. i'm gonna miss tis.rare moment when discussing educational stuffs. rather than complaining on weight. whining about piled up assignment. or criticizing people/ judging others.rather than purchase idle talk.

p/s: uni waits for me. i'll be back for sem 4.insyaAllah. how time flies. plus as 21 years old student 2. how flattering is that:p

Saturday, June 20, 2009


all the best for your exam kakak. i'll be praying for your H1 :)

my heart skips a beat. adrenaline rushing through my body. this might be mis typo. it should be hopefully u'll not getting H1. Wait. it's H1 la. the grade. sort of scoring A for your subject.i want.i want. mum's prayer is a magical. the 8th of wonders.

p/s: prefer for swine flu.instead of H1N1. it maybe can confuse the lecturers too.the one in microbiology department particularly.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

make sure u do your laundry before going to Tassie

kata ibu dengar sahaja

dan sebenarnya

He loves you.

U might be kidding it a prank? Come on Ashton. Come Out. i've been punked.whateva.

He truly loves you.

Tell me why.

Here's the proof. read it. u will know.u will understand.


When those come to thee who believe in Our signs, Say: "Peace be on you: Your Lord hath inscribed for Himself (the rule of) mercy: verily, if any of you did evil in ignorance, and thereafter repented, and amend (his conduct), lo! He is Oft- forgiving, Most Merciful.

Why did i not even realize bout tis. bout His love?

He's always there. always there. we will not discover anything if we're not looking for it. or thinking bout it. we will not knowing if we're not remembering something.

Seperti udara yang ku hela
Kau selalu ada.

i can't tell you enough how He loves us. open up your mind and see clearly. open up your heart then u can Him is our hope. our prayer. our desire.

i led astray. i forgetting Him. i ignore Him.

On the authority of Anas (may Allah be pleased with him), who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah (PBUH) say: Allah the Almighty said:

O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great at it.

Dear Allah. Forgive me for every sins i've committed. Dear Allah, makes me the one that always loves You no matter what happens.Dear Allah, makes me the one that who will You guide. Dear Allah, makes me the one who always be by Your side.

Monday, June 15, 2009

hip hip hooray

kalau anda gembira
tepuk tangan
kalau ada gembira
beginilah caranya
kalau anda gembira tepuk tangan.

reminiscing old memory. menyanyi di dalam bulatan. scream the lungs out.make sure it's a big circle.the more the's time flies. you don't have necessarily 2 do's not the only way to express happiness.there are a lot of expressions. would you rather look cute? cool? annoying? here's the suggestions:

- static. as if nothing happens.even you just score goal or something.just be maintained and be in control.

- bright up the day.make others curve their smile. make others be happy to be around us.

- shedding tears. do you notice that sometimes tears fall easily when we're so happy in getting something.

- praising Him.Alhamdulillah. our Creator.cos the happiness is beyond description. beyond universe. how one miss call or one sms can make you leap ecstatically.

la tahzan. do not be sad.jangan bersedih.
be content of what you have now. cos we're never know if we still have them around.tidak akan tenang hati kecuali dengan mengingati Allah.

Friday, June 12, 2009


Berkecamuk Hati
Hatinya sendiri
Di luarnya tenang
Tapi Tuhan saja tahu

p/s: 3 more to go. sabar sabar.there will be an ending.will be.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

old skool

kunci ajaib

21 years- 6 years = 15 years as student
ikhlaskan kami ya Rabb:)

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

ada apa dengan exam

microb paper is hard. seriously killer paper. or i do not have sufficient revision? or i do not really grip the concepts presented in lecture? what will be my score?


And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is ((Allah)) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion. (At-Thalaq: 3)

i shouldn't think that way. i shouldn't. I should put whole faith in Him. I should trust Him more than anything. the unconditional faith and trust. the same faith when i knew that i'll be safe from drowning.The same faith when i knew i should go for Intec rather than Curtin Uni in Kuching. the same faith when i knew ending a relationship is a start of something. forgive me for that doubt.i shouldn't doubt bout You. i do not deserved to.

so i keep my fingers crossed for microb paper.lembutkan hati examiner. let them enjoying my paper like enjoying Shakespere's masterpiece (masih adakah peminat sastera? of course la ade.heh) .

p/s: usaha dan tawakal is like toothbrush and toothpaste. u need both to brush your teeth.the missing of one causes imperfection.

Monday, June 8, 2009


me and hujan:

1. it has been 'hujan' since few days ago. which is rare occurrence actually.

2. love the feeling when it is hujan. but strokes of lightning killing the imagination. yup imaginasi romantik. thanx 2 Yusuf Haslam's films.haha.

3. new discovered favorite band: Hujan. yippie.
Bapanya mahukannya jadi seorang askar
Bukan cita-citanya
Bukan impiannya
*so cool. maybe u can replace cikgu, polis, perdana menteri etc. whatever wannabe occupations insisted by your parents.

4. lastly, hujan itu rahmat:)
recite the dua whenever the rain falling down. insyaAllah termakbul. hujan itu bukan sekadar hujan. hujan itu extraordinary.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

penjara pudu

i haven't see the outside world since 4 days ago
poor me. i only see cars passed by main road through my window.
i only see joggers through my window.argggh..i wish i can jog like them too (i bet :p)
seperti di Penjara Pudu.
so i've decided.
Port Melbourne here i come

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Hold me tight
Cos i'm not sure if i can find You tomorrow

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Dr House

Dr House: how can i help you?

Meredith grey: i caught with fever dr. i have runny nose.i'm coughing and sneezing too. plus muscle pain. ( meredith has been rehearsed these symptoms with medical students. to avoid humiliation).

Dr House: where are you from?

Meredith Grey: Malaysia (butterfly effect in her stomach)

Dr House: which part?

Meredith Grey: Negeri Sembilan.

Dr house: ???. let me check the map 1st.

Meredith Grey: what? not even on the map. sigh. it's somewhere here.between Kl and Johore.

Dr House: oic. ok then. u've been infected by upper respiratory virus.

Meredith Grey: it's not swine flu right?curiosity reflected.

Dr House: nope. flu and cold are different. flu is much more severe.

Meredith Grey: alhamdulillah.
in a way going to clinic makes a wonderful day for Meredith. it's not just about being sick. but quite a lot of things that she learned:

.cold is not flu. cold caused by viral infection.
. don't have to be nervous when seeing dr. they're just people. with dr title.that's it. dr can be funny. they aint serious all the time. they are not frowning 24 hours. then there will be no mcdreamy :p

tomok.bukan momok.

here's a phenomenal talent that impress us. susan boyle. i did cry when watching her debut performance in Britain Got Talent. cried over how the skeptical can be swept away only by her beautiful voice. touched by her honesty in being herself. she's been in spotlight.however she's end up in 1st runner up. quite unexpected. currently, she's being admitted into the clinic/hospital. another shock. she's been described as mentally exhausted. maybe due to the intense competition.or high expectation. or unplanned media attention. they all my assumptions. pity her. being on top sometimes pull you down. drastically. our position is sufficient for us. that's why i never won any singing contest in primary school i guess. the judges deliberately choose others cos they know i cant stand the popularity.haha. God knows best after all.


Fighting is prescribed for you, and ye dislike it. But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not. ( Al Baqarah: 216)

p/s: in searching 4 that confidence. how am i so confident to sing in front of public when my voice blared like old speaker? haha. nope. i'm not planning to be next Tomok whatsoever.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

13 going on 30

there's some time i'm feeling that i'm a little bit matured ahead or oldies should i say:p
physically obviously. people do think i'm in high school when i was in standard 4 something. much more surprised there's people thought i'm currently doing master (looking smart or looking old). i'm rather assuming the first one. there's even senior presumed i am Mara officer when we met at Mara office. haha. tis is quite extreme. how do i look in 5 years time? u can do the maths and prediction. maybe like pensioner? nauzubillah. enough said. being matured is not just on looking older than your actual age. it's much more than that. there'll be an urge to be a sensible grown up.that's one sure thing. we can't escape from being matured. that's fated metamorphosis. or sunnatullah. i learn a lot in my metamorphosis. with infinity diversification. with a lot of people. thank you for that. i had tis sort of 'heart 2 heart conversation' with my friend. a really long one. i'm touched by the fact that she cares so much about her beloved.i adore how not selfish is she. i admire her ongoing spirit. simply i respect you :) i learn a lot from u too adik( bajet la 2.haha).a lot. especially about being considerate. care about things that u should care about. not to be forgettten, my 'princess diaries' . i learn to express things that tangled in my mind. things i should say and things that are better left unsaid. more significantly to my emak. i learn to keep going even the journey gets tougher (gosh..make me homesick). i learn do not expect in return what you had give. ya Allah, dah macam surat luahan hati pulak.haha. i would like to share my 13th birthday wish from someone.

' Birthday is not increase in age. Birthday is a further step to maturity.'

p/s: 23 rd July. mark birthday :p

Friday, May 29, 2009


i realize that most of my posts are short lengthen. short as pencil that have been used since kindergarten. which is consistently get sharpened. tis is like compact version of my story. i do take long time when do the talking. so long that the person might try at their best to sustain the interest. i can draw the conclusion that not everyone can write such long posts (blog writing analysis). how's microb analysis waheeda? exam is just not around the corner. already at corner.
i couldn't find what to write most of the time. no wonder i didn't do well in esls essay:p but i'm really into story telling. u could allocate 2 hours 4 'kisah hidup waheeda'. maybe that just 4 primary school part. how many hours needed for entire life story? u can do the maths. basically, if you're interested to know more about the underlying story, just buzz me.appropriately. not in the middle of lecture.and when i'm panting as i'm rushing to the class.i'm more than happy to share.

p/s: an attempt to write longer post

Thursday, May 28, 2009

syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu

Di masa Rasulullah saw hiduplah seorang lelaki yang saleh dan rajin beribadah. Hampir setiap orang mengenalnya sebagai pribadi yang baik dan banyak berzikir. Namun, sungguh-sungguh mengherankan, ketika ia sakit parah dan hampir mendekati waktu ajal, lidahnya seolah-olah terkunci dari kalimat syahadat.
Kerabat dan sahabatnya membisikkan kalimah thayyibah di telinganya berulang-ulang. Namun mulut Al Qamah, nama lelaki itu tetap tak bergeming. Ia terlihat seperti ingin mengucapkan sesuatu, namun gagal. Mereka semua tak habis pikir, bagaimana mungkin seorang yang baik dan rajin beribadah seperti Al Qamah bisa kesulitan menghadapi sakaratul maut?
Maka, mereka pun melaporkan hal ini pada Rasulullah yang segera datang dan menengok kondisi Al Qamah. Ketika melihat betapa beratnya keadaan Al Qamah maka Rasulullah pun bertanya pada para hadirin:
„Apakah Al Qamah masih memiliki orangtua?“
„Ayahnya sudah meninggal ya Rasul, namun Al Qamah masih memiliki seorang ibu yang sudah tua dan lumpuh,“ jawab mereka.
Maka Rasulullah pun meminta Bilal dan Ammar mendatangi ibunda Al Qamah;
“Sampaikan pada Ummu Al Qamah bahwa Rasulullah mengundangnya. Apabila dia mampu, datanglah kemari. Bila tidak, aku yang datang mengunjunginya.”
Ketika ibu Al Qamah diberi tahu perihal undangan dari Rasulullah ini, dia bangkit dan berkata : “Dia adalah Rasulullah, sudah sepantasnya aku yang datang untuk menemuinya.” Lalu, meski semula lumpuh, dengan izin Allah, bunda Al Qamah seketika mampu berjalan dan menemui Rasulullah di kediaman puteranya, Al Qamah.
Setelah menyambut ibu Al Qamah, Rasul pun bertanya padanya dengan lembut, “Wahai ibu, bagaimana kabar Al Qamah selama ini?”
“Dia baik-baik saja. Dia juga seorang hamba Allah yang rajin beribadah, puasa, shalat dan juga selalu siap berjihad.”
“Lalu, bagaimana hubungan Al Qamah dengan ibu akhir-akhir ini?” tanya Rasul lagi.
Sang ibu sedikit terdiam, lalu menjawab perlahan, “Sesungguhnya, aku memang sedang marah kepadanya.”
“Mengapa?” tanya Rasul pula.
“Aku marah kepada Al Qamah, karena ia melukai hatiku dengan lebih mengutamakan isterinya daripada aku,” jawab Bunda Al Qamah.
Mengertilah kini Rasulullah persoalan Al Qamah. Rupanya, ia lebih mementingkan menyenangkan dan menuruti kehendak istrinya daripada berbakti kepada ibunya yang tua, lumpuh dan sesungguhnya membutuhkan dirinya pula. Kemarahan sang ibu rupanya telah memunculkan kemarahan Allah kepada Al Qamah, sehingga ia mengalami kesulitan di saat mengalami sakaratul maut. Maka Rasulullah pun berupaya mencairkan hati bunda Al Qamah agar bisa memaafkan dan merelakan anaknya.
“Carilah oleh kalian kayu bakar yang cukup banyak,” perintah Rasul pada Ammar dan Bilal pula.
Bunda Al Qamah terkejut. “Untuk apa kayu bakar itu wahai Rasul?”
“Untuk membakar jasad Al Qamah di dunia ini, sebelum ia kelak dibakar api di akhirat,” jawab Rasul.
“Ya Allah, Ya Rasulullah, apakah engkau akan membakar anakku ini?” suara Bunda Al Qamah begitu cemasnya.
“Hanya itulah yang dapat dilakukan untuk membantu mewafatkan Al Qamah, kecuali engkau mau memaafkan dan meridhoi Al Qamah.”
Mendengar jawaban itu, seketika menitiklah airmata sang ibu. Dan dengan suara pilu ia berkata, “Wahai Allah yang berada di langit, wahai Rasulullah, wahai sekalian umat manusia, persaksikanlah, sesungguhnya aku telah memaafkan kesalahan Al Qamah dan merelakan dirinya.”
Begitu bunda Al Qamah usai menyebutkan persaksiannya, para hadirin melihat bahwa jasad Al Qamah kini menjadi tenang dan bibirnya dengan mudah dapat mengucapkan kalimat sebelum nafasnya berhenti saat ajalnya datang.
Para sahabat yang melihat pun semakin memahami betapa pentingnya menjaga hubungan bakti kepada kedua orangtua terutama kepada ibu. Karena, keridhoan orangtua akan membawa kita kepada keridhoan Allah dan sebaliknya, kemarahan orangtua pun akan membawa kemarahan Allah.
Dan sungguh, setiap muslim pun perlu mengambil pelajaran dari kisah Al Qamah ini, sebagaimana para sahabat melakukannya.

Ditulis oleh : Zirlyfera Jamil, Majalah Ummi, No. 9/XVII Januari 2006/1426 H

p/s: i'll be going back mak.very soon:).now everyone can fly.yup every 2 months.wooho.maybe i should looking 4 mr pilot. bukan pen pilot itu.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

rumors.scandalous.gossip girl.

Gossip Girl: Spotted, Lonely Girl and N on the Upper East Side, learning the lesson that nothing stays missing for long.

N: do you know F?

LG : F?

N: Oh LG, she's the one wearing hideous tight outfits.

LG: T-I-G-H-T?

N: astaghfirullahalazim. Oh God, forgive me.

Love may fade with the season, but some friendships are year round. Like you and me! You know you love me. XOXO,
Gossip Girl.

Monday, May 25, 2009

don't be sad

dear diary,

i'm feeling that i lose myself since few days ago. i felt the emptiness. i cant define it. it's like when you're at the side of road. u do not have a clue which path u wanna take. u just stare blankly the cars passing by . then you heard a car honk 4 u. then u realise, 'i need to keep going..........' . i really hope that i can know what's this thing. what's up with this emptiness? with this sadness? with this loneliness? when the birds singing love song in unison. when the skies are bright in blue. when leaves falling onto the ground. i should not be sad. i should not.

And that it is He (Allah) Who makes (whom He wills) laugh, and makes (whom He wills) weep.

( An- Najm: 43)

p/s: laugh over the fb quizzes. no wonder. crying while watching Geng Pengembaraan. no wonder.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

lost and found

there was solat hajat held at Malaysia Hall today. followed by a talk given by Ustaz Nushi which is anticipated one. my friends told me how good he is as the speaker.seriously rumor has it :)
the thing that captivated me :

something will be more meaningful when we're searching for it.
ustaz nushi

that's hit my semi-functional mind. blame the exams :(

back to the story,
that's so true. why do parents even bothered to inform the reception counter if their child went missing? cos they are precious. they are valuable for the parents.
it's the same thing applied when we're rummaging our closet searching for our favourite anak tudung. walhal banyak je yang lain. cos that anak tudung is distinctive. it is special.maybe lubang di tengah emphasises on pengudaraan yang baik.

let us begin our journey in searching of something. we'll never know what's actually world has to offer until we explore it. we'll get there someday.we'll find the missing bits somewhere.

p/s: if you see my prince out there, do inform me:)
mak jangan risau, hanya gurauan semata.