Sunday, May 31, 2009

13 going on 30

there's some time i'm feeling that i'm a little bit matured ahead or oldies should i say:p
physically obviously. people do think i'm in high school when i was in standard 4 something. much more surprised there's people thought i'm currently doing master (looking smart or looking old). i'm rather assuming the first one. there's even senior presumed i am Mara officer when we met at Mara office. haha. tis is quite extreme. how do i look in 5 years time? u can do the maths and prediction. maybe like pensioner? nauzubillah. enough said. being matured is not just on looking older than your actual age. it's much more than that. there'll be an urge to be a sensible grown up.that's one sure thing. we can't escape from being matured. that's fated metamorphosis. or sunnatullah. i learn a lot in my metamorphosis. with infinity diversification. with a lot of people. thank you for that. i had tis sort of 'heart 2 heart conversation' with my friend. a really long one. i'm touched by the fact that she cares so much about her beloved.i adore how not selfish is she. i admire her ongoing spirit. simply i respect you :) i learn a lot from u too adik( bajet la 2.haha).a lot. especially about being considerate. care about things that u should care about. not to be forgettten, my 'princess diaries' . i learn to express things that tangled in my mind. things i should say and things that are better left unsaid. more significantly to my emak. i learn to keep going even the journey gets tougher (gosh..make me homesick). i learn do not expect in return what you had give. ya Allah, dah macam surat luahan hati pulak.haha. i would like to share my 13th birthday wish from someone.

' Birthday is not increase in age. Birthday is a further step to maturity.'

p/s: 23 rd July. mark birthday :p

Friday, May 29, 2009


i realize that most of my posts are short lengthen. short as pencil that have been used since kindergarten. which is consistently get sharpened. tis is like compact version of my story. i do take long time when do the talking. so long that the person might try at their best to sustain the interest. i can draw the conclusion that not everyone can write such long posts (blog writing analysis). how's microb analysis waheeda? exam is just not around the corner. already at corner.
i couldn't find what to write most of the time. no wonder i didn't do well in esls essay:p but i'm really into story telling. u could allocate 2 hours 4 'kisah hidup waheeda'. maybe that just 4 primary school part. how many hours needed for entire life story? u can do the maths. basically, if you're interested to know more about the underlying story, just buzz me.appropriately. not in the middle of lecture.and when i'm panting as i'm rushing to the class.i'm more than happy to share.

p/s: an attempt to write longer post

Thursday, May 28, 2009

syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu

Di masa Rasulullah saw hiduplah seorang lelaki yang saleh dan rajin beribadah. Hampir setiap orang mengenalnya sebagai pribadi yang baik dan banyak berzikir. Namun, sungguh-sungguh mengherankan, ketika ia sakit parah dan hampir mendekati waktu ajal, lidahnya seolah-olah terkunci dari kalimat syahadat.
Kerabat dan sahabatnya membisikkan kalimah thayyibah di telinganya berulang-ulang. Namun mulut Al Qamah, nama lelaki itu tetap tak bergeming. Ia terlihat seperti ingin mengucapkan sesuatu, namun gagal. Mereka semua tak habis pikir, bagaimana mungkin seorang yang baik dan rajin beribadah seperti Al Qamah bisa kesulitan menghadapi sakaratul maut?
Maka, mereka pun melaporkan hal ini pada Rasulullah yang segera datang dan menengok kondisi Al Qamah. Ketika melihat betapa beratnya keadaan Al Qamah maka Rasulullah pun bertanya pada para hadirin:
„Apakah Al Qamah masih memiliki orangtua?“
„Ayahnya sudah meninggal ya Rasul, namun Al Qamah masih memiliki seorang ibu yang sudah tua dan lumpuh,“ jawab mereka.
Maka Rasulullah pun meminta Bilal dan Ammar mendatangi ibunda Al Qamah;
“Sampaikan pada Ummu Al Qamah bahwa Rasulullah mengundangnya. Apabila dia mampu, datanglah kemari. Bila tidak, aku yang datang mengunjunginya.”
Ketika ibu Al Qamah diberi tahu perihal undangan dari Rasulullah ini, dia bangkit dan berkata : “Dia adalah Rasulullah, sudah sepantasnya aku yang datang untuk menemuinya.” Lalu, meski semula lumpuh, dengan izin Allah, bunda Al Qamah seketika mampu berjalan dan menemui Rasulullah di kediaman puteranya, Al Qamah.
Setelah menyambut ibu Al Qamah, Rasul pun bertanya padanya dengan lembut, “Wahai ibu, bagaimana kabar Al Qamah selama ini?”
“Dia baik-baik saja. Dia juga seorang hamba Allah yang rajin beribadah, puasa, shalat dan juga selalu siap berjihad.”
“Lalu, bagaimana hubungan Al Qamah dengan ibu akhir-akhir ini?” tanya Rasul lagi.
Sang ibu sedikit terdiam, lalu menjawab perlahan, “Sesungguhnya, aku memang sedang marah kepadanya.”
“Mengapa?” tanya Rasul pula.
“Aku marah kepada Al Qamah, karena ia melukai hatiku dengan lebih mengutamakan isterinya daripada aku,” jawab Bunda Al Qamah.
Mengertilah kini Rasulullah persoalan Al Qamah. Rupanya, ia lebih mementingkan menyenangkan dan menuruti kehendak istrinya daripada berbakti kepada ibunya yang tua, lumpuh dan sesungguhnya membutuhkan dirinya pula. Kemarahan sang ibu rupanya telah memunculkan kemarahan Allah kepada Al Qamah, sehingga ia mengalami kesulitan di saat mengalami sakaratul maut. Maka Rasulullah pun berupaya mencairkan hati bunda Al Qamah agar bisa memaafkan dan merelakan anaknya.
“Carilah oleh kalian kayu bakar yang cukup banyak,” perintah Rasul pada Ammar dan Bilal pula.
Bunda Al Qamah terkejut. “Untuk apa kayu bakar itu wahai Rasul?”
“Untuk membakar jasad Al Qamah di dunia ini, sebelum ia kelak dibakar api di akhirat,” jawab Rasul.
“Ya Allah, Ya Rasulullah, apakah engkau akan membakar anakku ini?” suara Bunda Al Qamah begitu cemasnya.
“Hanya itulah yang dapat dilakukan untuk membantu mewafatkan Al Qamah, kecuali engkau mau memaafkan dan meridhoi Al Qamah.”
Mendengar jawaban itu, seketika menitiklah airmata sang ibu. Dan dengan suara pilu ia berkata, “Wahai Allah yang berada di langit, wahai Rasulullah, wahai sekalian umat manusia, persaksikanlah, sesungguhnya aku telah memaafkan kesalahan Al Qamah dan merelakan dirinya.”
Begitu bunda Al Qamah usai menyebutkan persaksiannya, para hadirin melihat bahwa jasad Al Qamah kini menjadi tenang dan bibirnya dengan mudah dapat mengucapkan kalimat sebelum nafasnya berhenti saat ajalnya datang.
Para sahabat yang melihat pun semakin memahami betapa pentingnya menjaga hubungan bakti kepada kedua orangtua terutama kepada ibu. Karena, keridhoan orangtua akan membawa kita kepada keridhoan Allah dan sebaliknya, kemarahan orangtua pun akan membawa kemarahan Allah.
Dan sungguh, setiap muslim pun perlu mengambil pelajaran dari kisah Al Qamah ini, sebagaimana para sahabat melakukannya.

Ditulis oleh : Zirlyfera Jamil, Majalah Ummi, No. 9/XVII Januari 2006/1426 H

p/s: i'll be going back mak.very soon:).now everyone can fly.yup every 2 months.wooho.maybe i should looking 4 mr pilot. bukan pen pilot itu.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

rumors.scandalous.gossip girl.

Gossip Girl: Spotted, Lonely Girl and N on the Upper East Side, learning the lesson that nothing stays missing for long.

N: do you know F?

LG : F?

N: Oh LG, she's the one wearing hideous tight outfits.

LG: T-I-G-H-T?

N: astaghfirullahalazim. Oh God, forgive me.

Love may fade with the season, but some friendships are year round. Like you and me! You know you love me. XOXO,
Gossip Girl.

Monday, May 25, 2009

don't be sad

dear diary,

i'm feeling that i lose myself since few days ago. i felt the emptiness. i cant define it. it's like when you're at the side of road. u do not have a clue which path u wanna take. u just stare blankly the cars passing by . then you heard a car honk 4 u. then u realise, 'i need to keep going..........' . i really hope that i can know what's this thing. what's up with this emptiness? with this sadness? with this loneliness? when the birds singing love song in unison. when the skies are bright in blue. when leaves falling onto the ground. i should not be sad. i should not.

And that it is He (Allah) Who makes (whom He wills) laugh, and makes (whom He wills) weep.

( An- Najm: 43)

p/s: laugh over the fb quizzes. no wonder. crying while watching Geng Pengembaraan. no wonder.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

lost and found

there was solat hajat held at Malaysia Hall today. followed by a talk given by Ustaz Nushi which is anticipated one. my friends told me how good he is as the speaker.seriously rumor has it :)
the thing that captivated me :

something will be more meaningful when we're searching for it.
ustaz nushi

that's hit my semi-functional mind. blame the exams :(

back to the story,
that's so true. why do parents even bothered to inform the reception counter if their child went missing? cos they are precious. they are valuable for the parents.
it's the same thing applied when we're rummaging our closet searching for our favourite anak tudung. walhal banyak je yang lain. cos that anak tudung is distinctive. it is special.maybe lubang di tengah emphasises on pengudaraan yang baik.

let us begin our journey in searching of something. we'll never know what's actually world has to offer until we explore it. we'll get there someday.we'll find the missing bits somewhere.

p/s: if you see my prince out there, do inform me:)
mak jangan risau, hanya gurauan semata.

Friday, May 22, 2009

teardrops on my guitar

thank You for reminding me bout his love to us. thank You for consoling me that You will always love us. thank You for telling me bout this love story.

p/s: no tears shed for quite a while. at least tonight some microbes will be killed (tears contain chemicals act as defense mechanism:))


inspiration.inspiration. so many things running through my mind. but i can't find the right words to manifest them. motivation.motivation. feeling weak yet there's miles to go.

p/s: .help me please.

Monday, May 18, 2009

what time is it?

4.05 pm

Baillieu library

ground floor

i can't help myself from peeping next person's screen (busybody okay)

she's korean i can tell.i heard she's chatted with her friend. i guess she's contemplating whether to buy the prada handphone or not.

no i'm not understand korean language.

i 'accidentally' saw she browsed through Ebay page.

this is what happens when you got plenty of time, but do not utilise them wisely.

1. By Al-'Asr (the time).

2. Verily! Man is in loss,

3. Except those who believe (in Islamic Monotheism) and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth (i.e. order one another to perform all kinds of good deeds (Al-Ma'ruf)which Allah has ordained, and abstain from all kinds of sins and evil deeds (Al-Munkar)which Allah has forbidden), and recommend one another to patience (for the sufferings, harms, and injuries which one may encounter in Allah's Cause during preaching His religion of Islamic Monotheism or Jihad, etc.).

surah al asr.

it takes two to tango

i switched off my computer before my brand new printer done the printing job. i forgot that computer needs to be turned on in order to print notes. it takes two to tango after all.printer needs computer.and computer needs printer. so sweet:) even gadget needs each other.
communicating seems as essential for me.someone told me tis:) i can't live without talking to the people around me. people close to me. so please bear with my friendliness degree. let me be your chatterbox. cause i need you to listen to me. u need me to do the talking. simple. do entertain me with your jokes. and let me do the laughing.

p/s: it takes two tango. PLEASE read your microb notes waheeda. u need it for exam.and it needs u to be real reading material.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

i'm NOT missing you

I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus x2]

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life


(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
(I'm not missing you)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
(I got life to do)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
(I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh see the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not missing
I'm not missing you(yeah, oooh)
I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you

becoming thoughtful dresser

i got 639.50 aud 4 my bond return. let us see how i'm spending them:)

1. purchase ticket (kl to perth)- aud 150
2. purchase ticket (melbourne to hobart, tassie) - aud 134.30 (return ticket)

i pride myself for this. i still have approximately 300 +. save it 4 rainy days:)
in a way, i'm more becoming thoughtful dresser. do not buy expensive clothes unless it's necessary.if you still don't have your winter coat, please get one.or else u'l be frozen .like the scene in edward scissorhand.
above aud 15 is expensive range for me. for now. being thoughtful spender shapes thoughtful dresser.

Friday, May 15, 2009

someday we'll know


'O Man! undoubtedly, you are to run, necessarily towards your Lord, then you are to meet Him.

( al- insyiqaq ayat 6)

dear Allah,
help us to keep on running. keep on running even we're slow runner.even we have to brave the storm. until we find You.Ameen

Thursday, May 14, 2009

don't judge book by it's cover

i was heading to architecture building for my genetics lecture. ironically genetics in architecture building. maybe architecture sort of inspiration for genetics. creativity. that's one word link those two :) seriously i quite dislike the lecture hall. not so conducive compared to the medical lecture theater. need proof? i fall asleep in halfway the lecture. This is very rare occurrence in medical lecture theater.*grin*.
i sat at my favourite spot.obviously not the front rows. * grin*.there was one random guy in front of me.sitting with 2 other friends.he's basically staring everybody that passed by him.with intense stare. ' is he so perfect to stare people like that' mumbled me.

next 2o minutes...............
i dropped my bottle. maybe i'm so into the lecture until i decided to keep away all the distractions.uhuh. 'i'll take it after class..whispered me.

prior to the class adjourned,
'that' guy turned back holding my bottle. 'that's mine, thank you so much. ' gulpp.

p/s: there's one macho guy being caught watching love story music video. made me laugh in a way. seriously what you see doesn't mean that's what you get :)

Monday, May 11, 2009

may song

makes me wonder

i wrote my marketing essay since back days ago. it's like drink marketing, eat marketing and sleep with marketing.that's true. i have to abandon the other 3 subjects for a while. i makes me think how's on earth i am able to engage in the same thing for days? seriously the strength and passion is from Him. i couldn't find them by myself. it brings me to the second question, how a mother can love her child despite what and who her child is?again the strength and endless love is from Him.none other than Him. there are thousands of how questions running through my mind. and i will not be able to find the answers even a decade is given. i'm praying that He will always make us wonder about past, present and future. ameen.cos thinking state draws us near Him.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

santa claus

happy 45th birthday emak.
do not worry, u're still sweet 17 mum.
even people sometimes think i'm your sister instead of daughter:) ( or do i look old actually?)
hope u be granted for whatever you wish for.
i am so lucky to have u,i'm not sure if there's any other mum can stand me..

what u want for your birthday?

being good daughter is enough for me.

love you lots mum.

p/s: oopss...i'll buy coco channel. insyaAllah. that will compliment the grand prize.

Friday, May 8, 2009

acerlah di hati

insufficiency always haunts people. things that upset us always trigger the insecurity and insufficiency feeling. for example, i have a laptop.acer aspire 5550. there's sometimes i think that using mac book is desirable than using my lappy ( u know i didn't mean it mr lappy:P). the contribution of abang acer (laptop saye...not crush ke ape) to type this post is always forgettable. the feeling of touching the keypads always negligible. the feeling of viewing the screen seems insignificant. thank you Allah for giving abang acer. for having abang acer as part of my life. do not misunderstood me.i'm not talking to my lappy.we're not having pillow talk or anything. i just forget bout tis tiny bits that actually make us sustain sufficiency. the same thing goes to eating. i always eat more than i need. the energy intake is higher than energy expenditure. there's strong urge to eat more.

monologue: macam tak cukup je....(walhal sudah sepinggan penuh.sangat penuh).

what i'm trying to imply is human always thinking that what we got today are not sufficient for us. Allah actually has planned the coolest and most sufficient plan for us. without we knowing or realizing it sometimes.


He said: O Musa! surely I have chosen you above the people with My messages and with My words, therefore take hold of what I give to you and be of the grateful ones. ( al araf: 144)

sisterhood in travelling pants

i miss you adik.meant it.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

gimme more

no loss for giving in
but you lose if giving up
why not give in sometimes, waheeda.

things that can be applied:

1.give in to elders/needy that wanna have seats in tram
2. printing 1 day lecture notes rather than the whole sem.mind the queuing.
3. focus on lecture( at least nodding) rather than sleeping halfway through lecture.
* so on and so forth*

cos a world is evolved around us. we have world fulled of us. if there's part neglected, it's us.

smile and the world smiles with you
fart and you stand alone


Tuesday, May 5, 2009

she will be loved

love is unseen
unseen but you can be touched
it makes you curve a smile without reason
it amuses you without jokes
it touches you without realization
it nurtures you without limitation
it cares bout you without ending
always with you


When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he called on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way.

al baqarah:186

p/s: He is the Most Compassionate. He's the creator of love. He's the One that loves us when a world full of hatred. He's the One that stays beside us when others walk away. He's the One that knows what's lie in our heart.

Sunday, May 3, 2009


sometimes we forget that a world has millions survivors. they brave the storms and yet able to smile whole heartedly. life is survival in fact. i am survivor. you are survivor.we all survivors .

Saturday, May 2, 2009

swine flu

abah: take care of yourself. i heard there was already swine flu case in New Zealand. avoid crowded places. the flu can be transmitted from human.

akak: i need to go to uni abah. i cant skip class (xtahan ok waheeda. habis 2 all tis while adakah itu main skipping?)

abah: i do not mean uni. places like shopping etc...i mean places to hang out

akak: monologue: favorite place to hang out: kedai makan(insyaAllah selamat).

going to shopping can be avoided.but shopping is irresistible. i walked into handbag's outlet and end up buying an umbrella.yup umbrella ataupun payung. that is sort of achievement for me. i managed to buy something that is fulfill need instead of want/desire. ceh...


i met with 2 blind men yesterday in library. they walked slowly and yet able to reach their destination. and i who can see clearly still in the middle of door.thinking where should i head off to?

whine up

stop exaggerating. work on your assignments. whining wouldn't change anything. anything.whining wouldn't make 5000 words essay being typed. whining wouldn't make food ready. whining wouldn't spin the washing machine....