Sunday, July 26, 2009

pilihlah aku jadi pacarmu

i used to think that MCQ is way more easier than any other question types (short answer, essay etc). cos they are options given. we only have to make a guess which one is the right option aka the appropriate answer. but that's not the case. even there are possible answers, we still have to choose one only one answer. the options given are tricky ones. they seems right but they are not. that's so my 1st week in sem 4. i learned a lot when it comes to making decision. there are plenty choices, but you only need the definite one to decide. u wanna wear red socks or yellow socks? u make the choice. i'm changing my subjects over and over again. i do not want to be regret.that's why i keep changing them.i do feel that i've chosen the best subjects for me. now, i rest my case.pray to Him that i'll be alright. pray to Him that i'll be fine.most importantly pray to Him that i never leave Him.even the subjects are so whatever.never leave Him even i'm doing well.

p/s: feeling more like grown-up.

Friday, July 24, 2009

milik siapakah jejaka ini

my bf looks like shah rukh khan. with dark hair and dark skin.

he's not mine. let me clear things up. he's someone bf. natasha. girl sat next to me during flight back to Melbourne. what a household name. even young girl from oz knows him. that's not my point.
people always wanna make comparisons. comparisons to justify ourselves.totally my humble opinion.

p/s: favorite quote of the day: Islam will never leave you. Never.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

full stop

it has been about 5 years. 5 years that i paid the last respect to the deceased. i mean attending sort of memoir. managing the funeral process sort of. i had experience one when my last uncle died nearly 5 years ago. that was the very 1st time i loss someone who is really close and part of me. i learn how it feels losing someone that is matter to you. how's heartwrenching is that. i learn what our days will be without him.

we received a call from mum while having breakfast at kopitiam. Tok Nor has been confirmed his death by the hospital.Innalillahhirrajiu'n. he's cousin of my grandma.considered as our atok. when we arrived there his family pay their last respect. his children kissed his forehead for very last time. the tears welled in their eyes. then they performed solat jenazah before brought the coffin to nearby mosque. it's different feeling from 5 years ago.

life must come to an end.
if it's not today, it will be someday.
just have a go whatever we wanna do.
just have a courage to tell whatever we wanna tell.
before life ends. like how full stop ends a sentence.

p/s: death is worthwhile reminder for those alive.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

geum jan di

pernahkah kau merasa
jiwamu kosong

pernah. frankly, i really hate that feeling. aimless, weaknesses strike my soul. sedangkan banyak yang menanti di luar sana. i wanna be miss sunshine. miss optimistic. aja aja fighting>>>

Monday, July 13, 2009

hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller

we learn a lot from our real life. things that make us happy or things that upset us. most of them are beyond our control. we can plan to be a happy people. yes we can. but it can turn out to vice versa due to unforeseen circumstances. that's what i mean. hidup ini bukan seperti tv remote controller. that we have full control over it. life is ain't easy as sitting on the couch and tuning into astro channels. tuning into another channels when we get sick of watching particular tv channel. instead we need to move on in life.there's no such thing as rewind. hidup ini juga bukan seperti dvd player. you can't twist the past but you can fix them in present or in the future.

Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Ia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya, dan ia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya. (Mereka berdoa dengan berkata): "Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir"

Thursday, July 9, 2009

risks when it is risky

people choose to be risk taker when there's great extent of uncertainties. it's better make a risk move than doing nothing. like a guy tried his luck to propose someone to be his wife. there's a 1:1 risk.whether being accepted or rejected. it's better than just sit back in hope for getting hitched someday. however one should be prepared to bear the consequences, the risks for being risk taker. keep an open mind and open heart. do not stressed out if unexpected outcomes are encountered. after all, being risk taker the one that u chose. if not just play safe buddy.

p/s: my advice: do not ever tempted to take a risk when it comes to Iman and Islam. going clubbing in the name of being risk taker? there's no room for being risk taker whatsoever. naudzubillah. cos life itself is already risky. we never know if we can be best of muslim in the future. instead go crabbing. yummylicious. i used to think clubbing is like actively participate in clubs such as stamp collecting, kelab pengakap etc.haha.

secret admirer: die baik tak weh?
informer: BAIK. dye tak clubbing.

the secret admirer burst out into laugh. forgive her. that's the first thing that amused her in a day long. baik and amusing itu subjective :)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

teman tapi mesra

i would like to make confession here. exclusively in my princess diaries. i am with someone now. with Danish. i'm the lucky one. i can watch astro ceria freely. he doesn't care. i can watch free performances. malay songs, indo songs, even japan songs..just name it. ain't no other man like you Danish:) ain't no other. he insists to follow me to Melbourne.but i do not think it's a bright idea. there will be speculations man. just wait for me when i'm there. i will be back.

invitation to the truth

surgamu by Ungu.

Monday, July 6, 2009

ASL please

there's trend to chatting online long time ago. chatting randomly. the first question they would ask is asl. ASL? i used to think that acronym stands for asal. pardon me as i'm only 10 years old that time. actually it stands for age, sex and location.ROFL. aku mahu menulis tentang sesuatu. tentang ASL. asalku since i'm back home now. i'm proudly from Tampin. somewhere in Negeri Sembilan:)
unlike Rembau, Tampin is not really well known for their adat pepatih. seriously my friend hailed from Penang can answer better than me regarding these adat thingy. we're not really fully practicing adat pepatih. there's no MCD in Tampin. we only have 1 KFC, 1 Pizza Hut and recently Secret Recipe. thanx 2 us for contributing to KFC's revenues since many years ago. we're celebrating birthday at KFC. We have small gathering at KFC. Even bid farewell at KFC.KFC should feel indebted.haha. i do not care about how many fastfood outlets we have here. what Tampin is does matter to me. Tampin is like Texas to me. Tampin is my home. people that part of me are here.

p/s: i really want to upload pics in my princess diaries. slow internet connection do not allow me to do so. it's alrite Tampin.i still heart you.xoxo.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

sabarlah sayang

i've thought that i have become more patient lately. but i'm not.especially when it comes to talking. i wanna tell lots of things until i blurted them out inappropriately. it hurts people. and it hurts me too. i just cant control my emotion when saying those things. it makes me realize it has never been easy to be patient.

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and Most Merciful,

And We shall try you until We test those among you who strive their utmost and persevere in patience; and We shall try your reported (mettle).

Surah Muhammad (47:31)

bear with my imperfection.

how do i look

i'm feeling fat now. i presume i gain kilos since few months ago. it's upset me. not that much. i still consume foods for pleasure.

Narrated AbĂ» Hurairah : Allah’s Messenger said, “Allah looks not at your figures, nor at your outward appearance but He looks at your hearts and deeds.”(Muslim)

that's ultimate beauty. no one can ever see. the beauty that is not subjected to explicit judgment.
the timeless beauty. the beautiful skin might be wrinkled one day. but the beautiful deeds are immortal. even we are no longer here, the good deeds continually benefit others.


misunderstanding can lead to many disastrous outcomes. if it's not that disastrous it might be unfavorable. as an example, the cake might not tasted as cake if the recipe is misunderstood. the 20 years of marriage will meet an end caused by just one misunderstanding. the child will left unattended when there's misunderstanding bout responsibility. being understood bout things that we need to do is very crucial. the understanding of something is like syllabus.
i wish that i could understand bout all things evolve around me. but that's pretty impossible. what's possible is to understand things that closest to us. first and foremost is to understand about ourselves. to understand about who we are. then u'll get to understand bout the related ones:)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

high heels vs terompah

my 1st shopping treat after exam was to IBC ( Islamic Book Centre) . i'm longing for long skirt since months ago.i do not care how do i look in skirts as far as i can scavenge skirts there (way too brutal> scavenger) . i went there and begun my scavenger hunt. few skirts chosen for fitting. as usual, u do not look good in all skirts. you should be lucky if u able to find one that fits u perfectly. i made my choice. then i'm browsing the book collection. there are lots of good stuffs. from how becoming a good daughter to a mithali wife..auwww. i end up picked up 5 books. what? i'm not even reading the whole newspaper articles. i torn between skirt and books. i rarely reading books but surely wearing tis skirt. the verdict is i'm choosing to buy books.i can get 5 books with the same price of a skirt.there u go,becoming wiser spender. hopefully i will read them during tis winter hols.and i'm sure there will be more skirts back home. much more cheaper i presume.

p/s: Harun Yahya. google him.quite brilliant author.

saat pencarian

a lot of things tangled in my mind
lots that i wanna tell
but i couldn't find how to tell them
go find yourself. u will find you in the searching.

p/s: smith st tomorrow is a must. in searching of pencil case.lalala.