chapter 3: you are woman, not little girl

5th week of my summer love


2009 has come to an end. the weeks moved so slow before.but now the years revolve unexpectedly faster. i am grateful for making through 2009. if there's one thing to wrap up my 2009, it will be i learned a lot bout people. that includes learning bout myself too.serious talk, the dictionary couldn't list all adjectives describing people. people are special. the wonderful creation of people is written in Noble Quran;

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,


dan (ingatlah) ketika Kami berfirman kepada malaikat: "Tunduklah (beri hormat) kepada Nabi Adam". lalu mereka sekaliannya tunduk memberi hormat melainkan Iblis; ia enggan dan takbur, dan menjadilah ia dari golongan yang kafir.

(2:34)

but sometimes people act peculiarly. and you can be quite surprised of what people capable do. but i am so grateful that God grants me patience and rationale. despite they are may people that hurt you, they are good ones. in fact, the loved ones. i hope that i will never be the one who hurt them. well, i am people too.

p/s: my current fav song: breathe by anna nalick

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

it's 2010

somehow i think i may need 2010 resolutions.

btw, new year greeted me with broken laptop. i hate to admit this, i need to buy a new one:( i've been thinking of buying macbook. we will see. i need to find the most resistant laptop!haha. speaking of 2010, a lot of things will be on my plate:

1) turning 22.how flattered is that?

2) my final degree year. pray for coming graduation day.it's December.ameen.

those two are predictable. i have no idea bout the unexpected ones though. whether it's expected or the other one, i hope i nailed them. most importantly, i wish for better attitudes.

p/s: better writing should be included in resolution list too, i think.

aku bukanlah superman

aku bukanlah superman, aku juga bisa nangis


i was at level 3 of TSC (Tampin shopping centre yo!). i was waiting for my sis paying for double a batteries. the stationery set catched my glimpse. the kids must be over the moon while getting the brand new school items.i've been there :p i browsing the school related stuffs, killing time. the 'upin ipin' drawing block caught my attention. upin and ipin are cute, i admit. but there was weird urge of sketching struck me. i'm holding the drawing block and had a monologue:

' i should try sketching'

i'm not good at all in art. better trust me. there sometimes in life, we wanna try to do something different. they might be typical, whilst alien to ourselves. human have desire, that's my theory. make a wish to Allah, even though it seems unreachable. it might you, not for Him.

5 cents worth sincerity

"Apabila matinya anak Adam, maka putuslah segala amalannya, kecuali 3 perkara iaitu sedekah jariah, ilmu yang memberi manfaat dan anak soleh yang mendoakannya"




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it's your 1st Birhday, Darl.

i'm not gonna write you a love song cause you asked for it
cause you need one, you see.



it has been like almost 1 year i've been blogging.frankly speaking, it all started with the blog reading. i enjoy reading others' thoughts and reflection. for me, it is the reflection of wisdom.and to be honest i'm not that good in writing.hehe. but this one thing i am consistently have passion in it.indeed there sometimes i slipped away.not updating my baby blog for about 2 weeks! at the very beginning, i was finding what my signature writing would be. what should i write about. furthermore, how exposed can i be? to what extent i can unveil my thougts. cos blogging is form of self expression. when you express yourself, there's tendency of your privacy being violated.(bajet semua orang baca blog lak!haha). i'm also concern bout who might be my lucky readers* grin*. i'm so anxious if my close ones read my blog.haha. there's adrenaline rush. i prefer being secret writer.then who i address my blog to? so that's why my roomie attempt to put my blog link in YM. but slowly i learn to be open bout it.everyone is more than welcomed to read my humble princess diaries. i really hope you gain something from it.the good ones of course!everyone has their own melody, come on write your song babeh!



p/s: honesty can reach heart.hope i could reach yours:)

chapter 2: embark on motherhood

3rd week of my summer love

we went to the Zoo Melaka.three of us.me, adik and little Danish.obviously the zoo treat is none other for him! don't worry i'm not gonna to blabbing bout zoo experience. but i am so touched by the fact that there are parents taking an off-day to spend quality time at zoo:0 making their kids leap happily. danish didn't have a complain at all. he was like really into the visit. when are we going to see elephant? when are we going to see tiger? haha.making the aunts sweats off fat.lol. did'nt i just mentioned that i'm not gonna blabbing on zoo experience? pardon me.we headed to Melaka Mall afterwards. for the sake of converting ringgit into rupiah.Aku akan jadi jutawan pantas!haha.
while waiting for the person in-charge of money changer, i bumped into my ex-classmate.we haven't seen each other for about 9 years.phew. she was like in disbelief when seeing me.
i put on weight. that could be the most reliable theory.

'ni anak kau ke? she was referring to Danish.
i gave her finger. not the middle one.next to it. meaning still no ring stuck on my finger.

before we bid goodbye, she murmured: kawen jemput aku.

of course! i will.not only you.but all of our ex-classmates:p insyaAllah.

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,

It is not permitted to the Sun to catch up the Moon, nor can the Night outstrip the Day: Each (just) swims along in (its own) orbit (according to Law).

(36: 40)

everything goes in order.you meet someone right for you.you know the rest of story:)

p/s: sunnatullah.that's the key.

chapter 1: model scout

1st week of my summer love:


thursday is pasar tani day. my grandma would be the happiest in my house. as my sister always mentioned: going to pasar tani is like going for shopping spree. woman and shopping can't be separated after all:p. my sis would be the driver of the day. to put it more nicely, my granny's companion for going to the market. that's why she's an expert of the fish.just name it, she knows all existed species of fish!haha. for the sake of 'fish' reason, i was forced to go to the market today.

'kakak ikutlah nenek ke pasar, kenal sikit ikan' uttered my mom. that sounds pretty educational.i'm buying with the idea.

the three of us hit the pasar tani. then we stopped by at tis stall,selling seafoods. i was like kids learning their ABC's. i can tell you now how to differentiate tenggiri and ikan parang. ehem. out of no where, there was a guy approaching us.

unknown: assalamualaikum. maaf mengganggu. saya lihat cik ni ada potensi untuk.....

gasp. potential to be a model? i always read the stories behind the successful supermodels. they normally been scouted by the modelling agent.

continued:

unknown: potensi untuk berjaya.

he reached out for his business card. honestly, i keep it.who knows i might need the job in future.hehe.

what intrigued me the most is that the capability of seeing potential. please ignore the the model part.i always in the laidback mode which is sometimes unnecessary. i shouldn't just sit back when i potentially can shine. shining brightly.

reach your dreams.may you become the brightest you can be. at the utmost you can be.

p/s: i went to the workshop for servicing my sis's viva. amazed by how dedicated the mechanics are.FYI, i'm not checking them out or whatsoever.heh.